Nurture. (A Justin Bieber's FanFic)

37;Own good

Isabelle's POV

I stare at the closed door frowning

you were never going to fall in love with me anyway, no matter what I've done

What's that supposed to mean?

Sometimes I never can understand Justin, why does he want me to fall in love with him? I've already fallen in love. Could he possible like me? But he loves Maya, scratch that, he adores Maya. He's been obsessing over her since ever.

He can't love someone like me, someone who's that broken. He can't fall in love with me, There's a lot of prettier girls out there and as they say there's a lot of fish in the water.

can you at least appreciate that all I've been doing for the past week is staying around you, trying to make you feel better

I feel weird feeling in my guts and I feel so fucking stupid, so stupid. He has every right to be mad at me, If I were him, I'd be mad at myself as well. He kept by my side at all times, when I was depressed, sad, happy, crazy, and moody.

He stayed awake for me, to stay by my side. The nights when I got drunk, he would look around for me to make sure I'm safe. He kept by my side and Then I come and say 'i have no one' I'm pathetic.

you wanna know how it feels to have no one

i'll be glad to show you how by the way

Goodbye Isabelle.

I feel tears running down my cheeks and I start sobbing loudly, I start wiping my tears away convincing myself to stop crying. I'm officially a fuck up. I keep crying my eyes out, I feel my cheeks are starting to hurt from all the rubbing that I've done.

When I finally calm down, I stand up from my bed and look at the mirror. I look like crap, my eyes are so red, and also my cheeks. I sniff and complete looking at the mirror.

Do I show up at his house and apologize? What do I do now? Do I stay here?

I put on my flip flops and head to my door but suddenly I stop. This is not the right thing to do, showing up on his door steps and apologize looking like pathetic, it just isn't right.

I take a deep breath and think of this for a few minutes.

I can't keep doing the same thing; make a mistake and then apologize with the word 'sorry' and cry it's pathetic. last time I checked

Actions speak louder than words.

He wants me to go to the doctor, I will. Then I'll go to Kyle and get better. He can't be with someone who's this broken, he just can't. I'm ripped at every edge and I just want to try and get better before apologizing and making the same mistakes all over again.

I head to mom's room and notice she's asleep, I kiss her forehead and leave her room silently biting my lower lip. It's going to be alright, I'll get better, I'll be better. It's for my own good. 

I take an Uber to get to the hospital and I try to stop thinking about this but fail miserably. I notice I reached the hospital  all I do is take a deep breath before getting out of the car, I close the door behind me and sigh feeling a little bit dizzy, I start walking towards the front door, but with every step I feel more dizzy and I feel like collapsing.

I see a nurse sitting in front of a desk, when she sees me she smiles warmly "Hey" I manage to say feeling my head's on fire for no reason "Hello, how can I help you?" she asks warmly, "I- uh need to see a doctor" I say and manage to smile through the feeling of dizziness is hitting me harder every second.

This is it. 

This is for you own good. I remind myself before saying I overdosed by mistake. 

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I'M SO SORRY GUYSSS FOR THE LATE UPDATE. ALSO CAUSE IT'S SHORT AF.

I was just busy with summer but hopefully I'll start updating faster. 

I'm thinking of changing the name of the story, so any ideas? 

and also, I'm running out of ideas for this story; HELP! 

and do u guys want happy ending or bad one?

I LOVE YOU MY READERS <3 

I appreciate each and every one of you for reading this. 

-Stephanie