Nurture. (A Justin Bieber's FanFic)

38;This is it

Isabelle's POV

I lick my lips before raising my hand to knock but I stop and put my hand down and sigh looking around the neighborhood.

It's so quite, and dark; it's around 1 AM. Why did I pick this time to apologize to Justin? I, myself have no answer to that. I just felt like it.

It's been a month since me and Justin talked. Did he try talking to me? no he didn't. but did I? no I did not either. Why? because I wanted to be better and worthy when I knock on his door and say the magic word 'sorry'

I take a deep breath. Come on I encourage myself.

You're here. This is it.

I say to myself.

This is it. I raise my hand again and knock knowing he's awake.

Shit. shit. shit. Did I just knock?

I'm going to run, hell no I won't apologize this is embarrassing.

I turn my back when the door suddenly opens, "Isabelle?" I turn around and meet Ryan, I smile as he smiles back widely. I put some of my strands behind my ear "Is Justin home?" I ask, his smile gets wider "Finally!" he raises his hands up, and suddenly he cups my cheeks and kisses both of my cheeks.

I laugh "Chill man" I hit his arm playfully, he puts his hands on my shoulders and pushes me inside, "JUSTIN" Ryan screams, I widen my eyes. This is it.

"SOMEONE'S HERE FOR YOU" Ryan screams as we get inside the living room and see few of their friends here, I wave awkwardly. fuck.

"TELL HER I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER" he screams from the kitchen which is next to the living room, he still can't see me but I already feel my feet turn into jelly.

"JUSTI-" he cuts Ryan off "CLOSE THE DOOR AT HER FUCKING FACE. I TOLD YOU I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER. SHE'S SO CLINGY" he screams, I widen my eyes ready to leave when Ryan holds me "He's mistaken you by another women" he whispers, "let me go" I whisper and kick him with my arm, not a hard kick and walk towards the door.

I suddenly feel something on my back, and suddenly I'm on the floor and Ryan's on top of me "What the hell are you doing?" I whisper as he holds me down "You're not leaving! I'm serious he's-" he's suddenly cut off.

"Ryan.." I hear a cough, both of me and Ryan's face snap towards Justin, when Justin sees me, he widens his eyes "Isabelle?"

I kick Ryan again, and stand up "I was going to leave" I say hurriedly, suddenly Ryan pushes me making me crash on the wall "Ouch. WHAT THE FUCK RYAN?" I scream, "you deserve it. you're evil"

"Uhuh" I glare at him, he glares back. "Isabelle, what are you doing here?" I almost forget my goal. I look at Justin and smile awkwardly "hey" I say the same time Ryan says "to fuck you" making his friends' head turn to me. I widen my eyes and push ryan on the floor. "YOU ASSHOLE!"

He pulls me from my leg making me fall on him and we start hitting each other like little kids and fighting. "what the fuck. oh my god. someone help me" I feel a voice behind me, and suddenly someone snatches me from my elbow.

"NO JUSTIN LET ME GO! I WANNA KILL HIM" I scream as he holds me from my waist while I try to kick Ryan, "I wanna pull his hair, he pulled mine!" I scream, Justin suddenly puts me on his shoulder, and I start kicking him too "Let me go" I scream.

"damn, your tone of voice" he says once he reaches the door of his room and he throws me on his bed. I suddenly calm down and sigh missing  being this close to him.

"so.. what brings you here?" Justin asks and sits on his chair, I sit on his bed straight and cough "uh- why are you talking to me"" I ask, he raises his eyebrows "You just said you didn't want to see me" I complete, he widens his eyes

"You got that wrong, I thought you were Jane. one of my fuck buddies" he says, I put my head low, he still has fuck buddies? I suddenly feel sad and all my energy start draining slowly.

"I didn't think you'd come. I mean, It's been 4 weeks" he says and bites his lower lip, I nod and stay silent. he has fuck buddies? so while I was trying to get better, he was fucking another girls not really caring about me?

Why suddenly I became emotional?

Isabelle, He's not your boyfriend. He can sleep around. I say to myself.

"Isabelle" I look at him and nod "Say something" he says, I have million thoughts in my head and I realize I can't do it. I just can't.

"I'll see you later" I say and get up, he looks at me and sighs before shaking his head. "Whatever" he replies and gets up opening the door.

"Wait Justin!" suddenly I have the courage that was missing, he turns his head only, "I'm sorry" I say, "fuck, just please hear me out" I say almost beg. he nods and closes the door not saying anything.

"when you left, I realized how stupid I was and-" he cuts me off "You didn't even care" he says coldly, I raise my eyebrows "Excuse me? I didn't care?" I say slowly, he nods "I did not care?" I say more to myself.

"You fucking asshole! do you know what happened that day?" I come closer to him feeling rage inside of me, "you didn't care, no matter what happened" he says coldly again, I bite my lip feeling tears running down my cheeks. Why did I think it's going to  be easier?

"Isabelle" Justin's face softens, "why are you crying?" he asks taking a step closer which resulted in me taking a step back.

I feel all the rage inside of me straightaway explodes.

"I didn't fucking care? that's what you say when you didn't even listen to the whole story!" I suddenly scream and push him using my hands, "I was getting better for you! I wanted to be better! FOR YOU! not even for myself. you stupid prick! I wanted to be worthy" I scream and push him again making him hit the wall.

"I went to the freaking Doctor to check if the pills will have an effect on me! I stayed with Kyle this month to get better! but for who? for you! at the end I discovered it's for myself as well but you were the one first" I push him again.

"Fuck you!" I scream and put my hand on the door handle wanting to leave when suddenly I feel arms around my belly and I was pushed against Justin's body, "god only knows how much I missed you" I take a deep breath and calm myself down.

We stay like this for couple of minutes, then I turn around slowly facing him, his hold tightens around my back, "I'm sorry" I whisper.

"I missed you, I missed you so freaking much" he says and kisses my forehead. he keep his hands around me for more few minutes.

"Justin! Isabelle!" Ryan screams from my downstairs, "we have to go" I say, "No" he whispers, "Justin, please" I say, he just shakes his head and hugs me tight, "I can't believe you're here. you're actually here" he whispers, I let out a small chuckle "yeah, I'm here"

He let go of me suddenly but takes my hand in his before opening the door and going downstairs.

Everyone looks at me and Justin, then at our intertwined hands "are they together?" they ask Ryan, Ryan looks at us waiting for an answer, "No" we both say and Justin holds my hand tighter.

"We're going to play a game, so.. sit down" says Ryan, I suddenly pull his hair and he screams "I didn't have the chance for payback" I smirk. he glares at me before smiling widely "I've missed you" he says excitedly before hugging me, I hug him back using one hand because Justin won't let go the other.

"so what's the game?" I ask when we sit down, "You'll love it!" says a guy who I recognize his face, Dylan "TRUTH OR DARE!" cheers Ryan giving each and everyone a small bottle of vodka, he's crazy.

"Shit" I curse under my breath, Justin looks at me and pulls me to his chest "We'll enjoy babe" he says, I look at him "yeah sure" I say sarcastically

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BONUS CHAPTER!! 🎊❤️
-Stephanie