I Am Not a Guy!

Feeling 8 ~ How I Feel

It was incredible. It was blissful. It was amazing. His lips on mine, sending a jolt up my back.

I woke up the next morning to the sound of rain hitting my window. I lazily got out of bed and threw on my typical clothes. I got to school pretty quickly but I was late, so had to immediately go to class. During lunch, Kazue was in detention for not listening to the teacher in first period.

Free period, one in the afternoon.
It was raining horribly but I felt like going to the roof, even without Kazue. It would feel weird if I didn't go. I went up the stairs, and got to the roof. The clouds were a dark grey and it felt abnormal. I looked up and the clouds and suddenly I saw an umbrella forwarding over my head. I turned to see Kazue behind me, holding an umbrella over me.

"You'll catch a cold." He smiled. My heart nearly stopped at the moment and I felt my lips curve into a gentil smile.

"Shall we sit?" He asked, pointing to the fence. I nodded and we moved to lean on the fence as always. I felt so cozy and comfortable near him as he held the umbrella over our heads. It was raining terribly yet it felt so calming.

"Nami..." I heard Kazue mumble under his breath. He averted his gaze.

"Hm? What is it?" I asked.

"...Never mind..." He mumbled.

"Oh, come on. You can tell me." I smiled.

"...I dunno..." He muttered.

"Please? You know my secret, so let me hear yours."

"...No..."

"Please?"

"...No..."

"Pretty please? With cake on the side?" I begged to know.

"...Fine." And with that, his hand gently rose up to my cheek, caressing it as his lips slowly came to mine. It felt sweet. Blissful. Amazing. It filled me with an unfamiliar feeling. At first my eyes were wide, but they eventually closed, absorbing myself in the moment. The moment lasted for ten seconds before he slowly removed his lips off mine, his hand sliding off my cheek. I looked at him, his face burning red. He looked away, still holding up the umbrella between us. I didn't know how to react. He just... Kissed me? What am I supposed to do? Slap him? Kick him? Kill him? Kiss him back? Hug him? Or should I say something?

"Nami..." He said, his voice stern.

"Y-Yes?" I brought myself back to reality. He turned to me.

"What do you think that was?" He asked, looking into my eyes.

"U-Uh... A kiss...?" I stammered, my face beginning to heat up as my brain had finally caught up with my heart. What is this feeling?

"Yeah, a kiss... But what did you feel?" He asked.

"Um... Warmth?" I said, not sure how to answer.

"No, I mean feelings. How do you feel?" He asked again.

"Uh... Well... I feel happy for some reason...?" I said, clearly unsure.

"...How do you feel about me?" He finally asked his real question. I thought about it for a while.

"How I feel...? Well, I don't know... To be honest, my heart starts beating rapidly around you and I can't think straight..." I said, lookking away.

"...Perfect." In the corner of my eye I saw him smiling, with the most gentil and sweetest smile I had ever seen.

"...W-What about me?" I asked him.

"I love you." He smiled. How can he say that so plainly without covering it up in some way!? I felt my face burn till it was as hot as the sun. I felt so embarrassed I wouldn't mind being struck by lightning and dying on the spot.

"O-Oh..." I looked at my feet.

"I'm glad I finally said it." He chuckled along with a sigh of relief. I hid a growing smile behind my hair. What do I say? What do I do? Without thinking I decided to kiss him. I completely missed his lips and kissed his chin. I felt so embarrassed and stupid.

"Ahahaha!" He bursted out laughing. My eye twitched from embarrassment and my stupidity.

"Don't laugh at me!" I pouted.

"Ahaha! How can I not!?" He laughed uncontrollably. I felt so embarrassed I wanted to die. Why did I do that!? I wish I didn't do that!? What was I thinking!? I wasn't thinking! I can't even think near him! Gah! I got up and banged my head against the fence.

"Ahaha!" He kept laughing. I turned to him.

"S-Stop that!" I said, frustrated, still red as a tomato.

"Ahahahaha!" No difference. I began to pout and I shut my eyes tight. Then, I felt something soft on my forehead. I opened my eyes, to see Kazue kissing my forehead. I felt my face heat up more.

"P-P-P-Pervert!" I cried and kicked his area yet again. He fell down. Shit! I didn't think! Again! That wasn't even perverted!

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry!" I cried, crouching down next to him. He was both laughing but moaning in pain.

"Ahaha... You know, if you keep kicking me there I won't be able to release my sperm into you." He said in the middle of laughing. Did... Did he just...?? ...??? ...!?!?!? I felt my face heat up to the sun and I kicked him again, this time on purpose.

"Ahahaha! Hey! Ow! Ahaha! Stop that!" He laughed. I took the umbrella, which he had dropped, and walked back inside the school and went to my next class, ditching Kazue up on the roof. After what he had said, I didn't know what to do. First he kisses me and then makes a sex joke! Wait, that wasn't exactly a sex joke... But it was about sex! Gah! I can't stop thinking about him! I banged my head into my desk multiple times until class began.

I walked home alone and that night I got a text from Kazue.

"Hey, tonight there's going to be a festival at school. The principle decided to throw a little party for the school's tenth anniversary. There's gonna be a bonfire and some activities. I'd love for you to go with me." He sent.

"Sure, I'll be there. See you at... When?" I asked.

"Ten." He replied. That's a bit late...

"Alright. See you in a few hours." I replied. I didn't know that I would be having the most memorable time of my life in just a few hours.