Finding Myself [Amy Cimorelli Story] [COMPLETED]

Chapter 2:Amy's Pain

Hey Amy again. OK so if you're confused why this is a Science Fiction story, you'll find out soon enough. Right now let's get back to my story.

Day 13 Continued

That night I wondered if I was good enough. This was the first time I experienced writer's block and I was in tears. Was one mean comment enough to drive me over the edge? That answer is, maybe. So I put on my black shirt again and black pants I got for Christmas and went to sleep subsequently.

Day 14:December 28th, 2012

3 days till New Year's Eve and I was frustrated. I'm 17 and how was I already feeling like a failure? This tapped into my darker side that nobody else really knows at all. Not even my family knows about this. That morning I decided on just plain cereal for breakfast without milk. After my breakfast I went back to my room and locked my door. I didn't want to be bothered and pretty much slept all day while putting on my headphones. Christina came out of her room looking for me and she was worried. She feared I ran away from home. If I was gonna run from home, I would have announced it. Frantic, she yelled for the others. Christina screamed, 'DANI! LAUREN! LISA! KATHERINE! HELP ME FIND AMY!' They nodded and went to look for me. Lauren was crying and Lisa seemed very angry, whereas Katherine was bothered and Christina was frustrated. As for Dani, she seemed confused and blurted 'Girls, how about we actually try her room?' They were running around like chickens with their heads cut off frantically going about. Me? I was sleeping. Christina started to show some rage and banged loudly on my door in a very pissed mood. How pissed was she? She wanted to yell profanity but kept as calm as she could. Hurricane Chrissy at work! Pretty much they didn't get through to me and I was sleeping all day, not even bothering to eat lunch, dinner or do anything else. I debated on cutting myself but I held off on that for now.

Day 16:December 30th, 2012

I haven't left my room for 45 hours. Everyone was worried about me, but did I care? No. But then it hit me...OK Amy, enough is enough, you need to grow up! I flew out of my room in a rage and trashed my plant pot, bolted out the front door and ran off. This was when I realized I had a dark side. This dark side of myself was a moody, depressed figure.

Day 17:December 31st, 2012

I spent New Year's Eve at my best friend's house, away from my sisters. I wanted to break away from it all. I did call my sisters up and asked Christina to put her phone on speaker and call the family over, then I told them, 'I'm sorry for running. The last week has been tough on me personally. I apologize for what happened. Please forgive me.' Christina then ordered that I get home immediately. I refused. Christina showed so much rage that the rest of the sisters went to find me and would find me some minutes later. Come on, I need to be left alone OK?! Christina was then furious with me and wanted to slap me in the face. As for Dani, well...

I gulped.

Dani then unleashed a fury on me 'Amy, you are really not doing yourself any favors!' She shoved me into the wall. Dani had to be restrained and I was in so much pain. This was the point where I wanted to attack Dani, but I held back and instead was crying relentlessly. I was so pissed with Dani that I didn't want her in my sight anymore. Then all of a sudden, my blood started to boil and I went after her anyway. My sisters held me back and I was so livid. Not a lot happened after that and I stayed here while my sisters went back home. Oh how I was so angry. Then I suddenly got depressed. I cried myself to sleep.

Day 48:January 31st, 2013

A month has passed since i left my sisters' house. I was so broken that I needed my sisters more than ever. This wasn't me. Suddenly a voice called my name by the name of Syren. I was so confused. Syren told me, 'You're a dark mermaid' I was like, 'Huh!?' Syren added, 'You'll know soon.' She left and I knew I had to hurry home. I knocked on the door while I was crying and I collapsed to the ground in tears. The door opened and I saw it was Dani. In her mind she wanted to make my life a living hell. I told her to just do away with me. As Dani was about to grab my hair, she stopped in place. Conversation to follow.

Dani:No.

Amy (me) :Just do it OK Dani? You hate me.

Dani:I DO NOT!

Amy:Then why you shove me?

Dani:You didn't tell us why you bolted off for no reason!

Amy:That mean comment made on my video. I should have told you.

Dani:Seriously?! Over 1 mean comment?! Amy, you need chill.

Amy:No.

Dani:Anyway, come back inside. You're needed here.

Amy:OK.

I was shocked Dani would welcome me back inside the house. After what she did to me the other day?! She sensed something was bugging me. I stayed mum. Nothing else exciting happened that day, but thankfully nothing tragic either.

Day 50:February 2nd, 2013

Still bruised from when Dani shoved me, I asked Lisa to take a look at my arm. She noticed it was nothing too major and just patched it up with a few bandages. I approached Lauren and she gave me a hug and told me all would be OK. I had the courage to get back to writing songs so I went to my room to play my guitar. I wrote a song called 'Life Speaks' [A/N:not a song they actually did, i made it up on my own] and this one I felt good about.

Months would pass to when we shot our Made In America video.

Day 153:May 16th, 2013

So after our video, I got to playing my guitar and did Made In America. [after the prologue] Dani noticed I was doing an acoustic version of where I do all the vocals, and yes I did Lauren's rap but more like spoken word. I told Dani what was bugging me.

Amy:Dani, I need to tell you something. Promise not to tell anyone?

Dani:Yes.

Amy:OK good.

Dani:Tell me.

Amy:...I have a dark side.

Dani:Oh?

Amy:Yeah there's a side of me you don't know, this dark side that I've been trying to shed for years. When I saw that mean comment, it unleashed my darkness.

Dani:You need to try and shed the darkness in your heart.

Amy:I'm trying. Can you help me?

Dani:Only if you promise not to bolt without telling us again.

Amy:Promise.

Dani:OK good, or I will tie you up in strong bonds and you'll be stuck for months.

Amy:Seriously!?

Dani:Yeah.

Amy:I promise I won't bolt.

Dani:Good. Let's help you out.

Amy:OK.

Well, that went well. We released our Made In America EP afterward but I had to focus on more important matters, like my health.

Day 154:May 17th, 2013

Today I wore all light clothing, yas. I felt good telling Dani what I needed to get off my chest. I made breakfast and did chocolate chip pancakes and bacon again. Like before, I made only 2 of each since we were doing another cover today. This time I took off a piece of a pancake and attempted to put it in the middle of a bacon sandwich. LMAO that was funny.

All in a day's work. Thank you Cimorelli.

TBC

Amy:To find out what happens, stay tuned for Chapter 3.

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YAS

~Amy

Amy PS:See you on our Hearts On Fire Tour! We start Sunday

A/N:Thoughts? Votes? Comments? Lemme know. ~Mike [MermaidCim on twitter]