okay so my brother just messaged me on Twitter and I'm feeling confused (idk not really but I can't think of another word bc there are many strange emotions I am feeling) like idek what to say
this is what he said
" Hey there, figured I'd message to see how you and the family were doing. I know I'm bad about keeping in touch, but wanted to let you know that I think about how you're doing. Your nephew turned 2 earlier this month, he's getting to be so huge. Perhaps someday he'll get to meet his Auntie Milea :). I know that we haven't really ever gotten a chance to know each other that well, besides the meetup we had so many years ago at that restaurant when you were younger. Probably due to our age difference, I mean, I had a good 17 year head start ;). Anyway, just wanted to let you know I'm still around, and that I care about you. If you ever need anything, or an ear to listen, I'm here.
Love,
Myke"
okay so first I feel like this needs a back story
okay so throw back 1982 my dad is a young man(whore lmao amiright lady's)(jk he wasn't) and he just got married for the second time and found out his wife( homie named Melanie) was prego with my brother Michael/Myke and so he was born and yadayadayada and then in 1983 my dad is still married to Mel and he meets my mom at some store and he's like yeah I got a home studio bby wanna check it out and so yadayadayada and then in 1985 my parents are married (lmao dad was a straight thug)(jk) and then in 1998 out pops yo girl mil and by this time Myke was completely out of my parents lives he resented my dad for not being there for him and not taking him in when he was having hard times w his mom Mel and so we met once when I was 8 and it was so lit like I have never been so excited like I was so happy to meet this brother of mine that I had heard and seen little of I knew that he was cool and had tattoos and a cat w six toes and so I bought a new outfit and we went and ate w him(me and my mom) and it was so fun we talked for like 3 hours and i loved it I finally had a sibling who I thought was going to chill w me and stuff even tho he lived like 3 hours away but I was so happy
fast forward to like 2 years ago Myke had a cute lil beb w his gf Becca and his name is Xenos he lives in Texas now which is real far like I'm on the east cost homie and I haven't seen him since I was 8 we messaged on Facebook like 6 years ago and that was the last we spoke and I mean I'm not saying it wasn't a nice message I'm just saying it was out of the blue and I don't know how to respond like I wanted him to be my brother and I know there's an age gap but I wanted that I wanted someone I could talk to when my parents were being hateful I wanted someone I could be myself around(bc let's be honest my friends wouldn't wanna b friends w that person and my parents would hate that person) and I know everyone's always like gah I hate siblings you're so lucky LIKE NO DO U REALIZE IM ALONE DO U SEE THAT I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO DO U REALIZE YOU HAVE SOMEONE U CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON WHO NO MATTER WHAT THROUGH ANY FIGHT THEY WILL STILL LOVE YOU AND THEY CARE AND THEY WILL HELP YOU AND YOU ARE SO LUCKY TO HAVE THAT DONT YOU EVER TAKE YOUR SIBLING FOR GRANTED and I guess I just wish we were better at keeping up appearances like I guess I wish that we could hang out or something like I guess I'm just bitter bc I never got to have a sibling or a chance to have that experience that I see all of my friends having I guess I'm just sad and lonely and I'm an emotional piece of shit
~mil
