From the first time he talked to me, I knew this can't be happening. But when we started to go out to watch movies and play tag on traffic, I knew he was the one. It seems impossible, but my hand was entwined between the spaces in his.
It was a long day from Miami and we were on our way home to a hotel in California. They were having a concert there tomorrow. Concert. Yep. They are One Direction and Harry Styles was the guy I fell in love with.
It was dark and I almost dozed off when Harry squeezed my hand.
" You awake?," he asked.
" Umm... Yeah. "
" I know I seem a little rushed but I don't want to lose you anymore. " He removed his hand from mine and it felt cold. He reached for his pocket and took out a small box. He opened it and it was a wedding ring. I gasped. My eyes were wide and my jaw was literally dropped. I was fully awake and I am not dreaming. " Laura, my love, will you marry me? "
" Yes. Yes. Yes! " I kissed him. It was a private van so I'm not embarassed. We were together for two years now and I am on my legal age and so is he. It was the peak of my life.
I heard a thump. Harry immediately pulled back. It was the driver's head on the steering wheel.
Everything in my head stopped as I heard car screeches and a huge light coming towards us. The driver was awaken but failed to control the van.
All I know was Harry held me close to his chest and wrapped his arms around me, so tight ... I felt a tear fall down because I knew it was a car crash.
.........
There was a huge pain on my whole body as if I was beaten up by someone. When I opened my eyes, I had no idea where I was. But I was on a bed, laying down.
The car crash.
I stood up with the help of all the energy I have. I was in a hospital for sure and that means, it was all true. Where's Harry?
" Harry ... Where are you? "
I managed to speak but I was alone and the thought of him dying ... is not a thing I would accept.
" We're very sorry, sir. There's nothing we could do. " The door was open and I can hear people talking. There was the boys ... but Harry was definitely not there. I pulled all the tubes and wires attached to me and limped my way to the door.
" Mr. Styles is dead. "
No. No. No.
" NO!!! " I barged my way on the conversation and wanted to kick the shit out of that medical doctor but someone grabbed me and pulled me back.
" Ms. Laura, you are not good yet. Please return her back. " He was calm that it made me more angry.
" Shut up you son of a b*tch!!! Do something!!! No!!! No... no ....no. " My voice trailed off as Louis pulled me into a hug.
" Hush. Your condition is not good yet. Laura ... please. " By the tone of his voice I knew he was also in the verge of crying.
I sobbed harder as I pulled myself away from him. " I want to see him. I want to see Harry. "
The doctor just nodded as nurses assisted me there. The boys followed me as well. Niall was crying too but not any harder than me. Everyone was quiet especially Louis, who was in deep thought.
" Please, I believe this is yours. " One of the nurse handed me the wedding ring box. I forgot Harry hasn't placed it on me yet because I was so happy and ... and.
The boys smiled at me as I opened the box and placed the ring on myself. It looked so beautiful.
" This way Miss or Mrs. " She gaved a small giggle which was really cute.
My spirit was lightened by the sight of the ring but by the sight of Harry laying there. Pale. and D-dead. I started crying again.
" You didn't even gave me a real marriage, you idiot. " Sniff. Sniff. I cried on his side. " But I love you. " By me saying all of that. People would be thinking I'm insane. Which I think I already am.
" Why do you have to leave me when we were everything and we were perfect. "
" We need to go Miss. "
" NO! I am not leaving. If I should, I'll be with him wherever he goes... " Realizing what I just said, everyone gasped.
" Laura! What the heck are you saying!? " Zayn said.
" You don't understand me. No one understands me. Only him. " My vision dimmed and all I can see was Louis running towards me as I fall to the ground.
.........
“Cry me a river, build a bridge, and get over it.” ― Justin Timberlake
I woke up again in the same room a while ago. Was everything a dream again? Is Harry alive? I looked around and Louis was there sleeping by my side.
" Louis? "
" Umm... yeah? Oh. Laura you're awake. " He bolted up and looked very concern about me.
" He's dead, right? "
" It's sad but that's life. You live and you die. I will really miss him. *sniff* Gaaah. Why does this need to happen? "
" I don't know. "
..........
“It was strange, really. A couple months ago, I had thought I couldn’t live without him. Apparently I could.” ― Gabrielle Zevin, Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac
Two months later
I was in the cemetery staring at Harry's name. It was a worldwide phenomenon. His death is. It's his death monthsary today and everything still seems knew to me. I barely speak anymore. The pain was killing me slowly.
We will be togethere forever. I searched my bag for my knife but I felt a hand hold my arm and pull the knife away from me.
" Laura! I knew I should have followed you! Have you been taking your pills? " I didn't move as Louis threw the knife away and placed his hands on my shoulders. My pills. Right. Doctors say I am mentally unstable so I need to take medicine of course.
" I know Harry. He doesn't want you to kill yourself, why would he had protected you from the car crash if he wanted you to follow him to wherever he goes? He wants you to live a normal life again. That's why he loves you, he loves you so much he will let you go. "
Those words of his stabbed me in the heart that I began crying again and I buried my face on his chest. With that, I felt fine and at ease.
" Try to turn the page Laura. Okay? "
I smiled and nodded. " Thanks Louis. "
..........
“Do the things that you always wanted to, without me there to hold you back, don't think just do, more than anything I want to see you go, take a glorious bite out of the whole world” ― Snow Patrol
We sat by the balcony of the boys' apartment. It was sad that everything reminds me of Harry. Every small thing. It seems like a piece of memory was attached to everything.
" Thanks Louis again ― for everything. For those poetrical words. " We both laughed.
" Because I used to love you even before you and Harry started dating. Tell me, are you willing to love again? Cause if not, I'm willing to wait. " He smiled at me.
" Not yet, I guess. But if not for you, I would have gone insane. I would have killed myself. I would have died in vain. I wouldn't have realized how beautiful life is even without the person I loved. But you know what ... You are my Sanity. "
Author's Note:
Hey guys :) Hope you like it. Woops. I killed Harry here, I kinda felt bad about that but it's just a fictional story. Haha. I got the inspiration of this story from the songs Mirror by Justin Timberlake and Clarity by Zedd. Vote and Comment!
