More Than Friends // Sequel of Friends with Benefits.

Chapter Twenty: I Decided to Not be a Sack.

I was completely emotionless. I wanted to get off my lazy ass and do some homework or something but then I thought of never getting out from under the covers of my warm bed. I had stayed in my room for the weekend and as soon as I got home from school I did that as well. I had tried to avoid any contact with Alex what so ever. I didn't hate him but I was to much of a wreck to talk to him. I also was going to see Tate as much for obvious reasons, but I felt bad in a way. So after school I decided to not be a sack and go to see him. I had also not mentioned to him that me and Alex had broken up, and if I were to mention it, it was only because he would ask.

On my way there I just wanted stop the car and cry but I couldn't. Tate was my best friend and he needed me the most right now. I also made a promise to him which I intend to keep. I got to the hospital and went up to his room. He was just playing on his phone. He looked up and saw me and a smiled sprawled across his face. I tried to give him a small but he could obviously tell I was upset.

"Hey. I haven't seen you all week." he said to me, as I sat next to him.

"Yeah I've just been going through stuff." I explained.

"Oh. Well are you okay at least?" he asked.

"Yeah..." Lie.

"Well do you want to talk about anything?" he asked.

"Tate, really I'm fine." Lie again. I couldn't tell him though, I would only explode with emotion and cry all over the hospital floor. He could not know...yet.

"What can't I know yet?" he said in a worried tone. Fuck. Dammit why do I always have to talk out loud. I blame my mum for this shit.

"What?" I said, trying to pretend like I didn't completely blow everything.

"You said that I could not find out about something. Now what was it?" he said firmly.

"I don't want to talk about it Tate. It doesn't even effect you." Lie once again.

"I don't care. If you're in pain then I'm in pain that's what you signed up for you being my best friend." he explained.

"No because I'd I tell you that me and Alex broke up then I'm just going to start crying again and I'm just done with all the tears Tate so can you please just let it go!" I started going on and then it just hit me that I had told him.

"You broke up with him?" he asked.

"He broke up with me." I said, trying to hold back my tears.

"Why?" he asked. I had to lie. I couldn't tell him that it was because he thought I was in love with Tate. Tate would only blame himself.

"I don't know really. But its okay." last lie for the night folks, I'll be here all week.

"Talk to me please Charlie. I know you're not telling me everything." he pleaded. I looked at his worried face, and couldn't help but start to cry.

"No. I'm sorry please don't cry you know I hate it. Come here." Without saying anything I got up from me seat and laid next to him, then cried into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry Charlie." he said.

"Yeah me too." I said.

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I had spent the whole day at the hospital. After I had stopped crying Tate hadn't asked me anymore questions about the subject, which I was thrilled about. We had been watching a movie on his tiny computer screen when the nurse told Tate he could go home tomorrow, then back to school. I was happy about that because now I had him in school so I wasn't awkwardly sitting in the band room avoiding any contact with Alex.

Half way through our second movie Tate had turned to me. He didn't say anything just stared as I watched the movie.

"Why are looking at me like that?" I asked.

"Did you do the same thing with me when I hurt you?" he asked. I was taken back by his question.

"What do you mean?" I said, obviously understanding what he was trying to ask.

"Were you torn apart like how you were before, that day before school in my car." The answer was yes but I definitely handled it differently I filled that sadness with anger and hate. But I didn't hate Alex and I sure didn't hate Tate anymore. 

"Yes." I said bluntly. I didn't want to bring up the fact that Tate had hurt me but here I am talking about it with him.

"I hate myself everyday for that, you know that right?" he said.

"Tate don't hate yourself. What were going to do? Pretend you liked me when you didn't it was stupid anyway, I had feelings that I didn't know existed but you're my best friend and that all that matters...One question though." I said.

"Okay." he said.

"Why? Why did you seem like you liked me when in reality you didn't? Why not just say that you didn't feel that way and not bother to take me to that wonderful place, and kiss me?" I asked. I knew  was asking a lot of questions but I have a right to know.

Tate's POV:

As she was speaking to me and asking all of these questions that I could answer but she would hate me and then hate me forever. I know it was stupid why I broke her heart but I couldn't risk her future being effected. I had to protect her. I wanted to tell her everything about what happened the night before.

Tell her that I truly and would always love her.

"I wanted to feel things that weren't there. To make you happy." I lied.

"It would have hurt less if you didn't lead me on." she told me.

"I know. I'm an idiot and you should have never forgive me." that was the truth.

"The past in the past. You're my best friend Tate I don't know what I would do without you." she placed her head on my shoulder. I felt my heart skip a beat at her touch. I wanted to explode right now with the just honesty flowing out of me, but the world hates me. But I would rather the world hate me, and her be happy.

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A/N: Hey guys. I hoped you liked the chapter don't forget to comment and vote and all that shit. And again don't be afraid to message me with ideas and input on the story. I KNOW ITS REALLY SHORT! Love you guys!!!!

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