More Than Friends // Sequel of Friends with Benefits.

Chapter Forty-One: The Girl I Loved

4 Months later: 

Summer vacation was in full swing and then after that it was off to New York. I was sad but excited at the same time. Tate, Alex and my parents have made this the best summer. One that I will be sure to remember but as much as I want it to last. This was the last week of summer and it was definitely effecting the way Tate was acting around me. It was just me and him today and we were being lazy on the couch at his house. No one was home and I'm glad that it was quiet. I had my head on his chest as I listened to his heart beat and breathing. I picked my head up and he was just watching the movie and not really paying attention to me as I stared at him.

"Tate."  I said softly.

"Yeah?" he answered but he he continued to look at the TV.

"You seem off all week. I know I'm leaving next week but you don't have to be upset." I explained.

"I'm not upset." he said bluntly. I didn't say anything else after that knowing I would only upset him more. He pushed me off him, quite rudely. He got up and walked in the kitchen. I soon followed behind him.

"I can tell you upset but you know this is what I want. We've talked about this all summer Tate and now a week before I leave you're gonna shut me out." I said , getting a little agitated.

"I told you Charlie I'm not upset. Everything isn't about you anyway. I'm happy that you're going to New York. You could leave right now for all I care." he yelled and his words hurt, but I was more angry that he was yelling at me for something I had already decided I was doing four months ago and now he decides to try and make me feel bad for leaving.

"I can't believe you're actually doing this to me Tate. You're such a dick sometimes once things don't go your way. And instead of talking to your girlfriend about how you feel, you yell at me like I'm the bad guy. You know what Tate my summer has been pretty damn great until this but you don't care about that either. You can then sit home and mope. I'll find someone else to take me to the air port next week. Bye Tate." I yelled. All the things I had said weren't necessarily true but I was to angry with him to speak the truth. Before he said anything else I grabbed my bag and left. I got in my car and drove home. That was the last time he was going to shame me for doing what I love.

Tate's POV:

I tried to chase her out of the house but I was too late.  I was stupid and shouldn't have said she should leave so early. I never wanted her to leave of course. I don't know what wrong with me when it comes to her. The thought of not being with her every day scares me to the point where I get angry. After she left I went and called her immediately. She didn't pick up and in fact she sent me straight to voice mail. I called four more time but she never responded.  All summer I had tried to keep a smile on my face but I was continuously counting down the days until she left. I couldn't deal with losing her, my best friend, the girl I had grown up with.

The girl I loved.

But I knew all too well that this is what she wanted and I would never stop her from achieving her dream because she would do the same for me. I decided to let her cool off for a day.

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No answer to any of my calls now for three days and she would leave this Saturday and I was terrified I would miss her leaving and not say goodbye. I had to go over there and do it now before I miss my chance. This is the girl I love for crying out loud. How could I be stupid enough to let her slip away so easily. I got out of bed and drive over to her house. I walked up nervously to the front door and knocked. I heard shuffling around behind the door and then she opened it.

Makeup ran down her face as if she had been crying for days. Her hair was messy and she was in one of my big T-shirts and shorts. She looked run down and pale as well. I could feel my heart break because the things I said made her feel like this.

"What do you want?" She snapped.

"I want to say I'm sorry for everything." I stated. She looked at me up and down then slightly laughed.

"You are totally forgiven Tate how could I be so blind and stupid and be angry at you" she said sarcastically. She was getting defensive with me which meant she was really pissed.

"I know I don't deserve your forgiveness and you should probably just go to New York and not talk to me but I can't let you go as easily as you can let me go" I explained.

"You're not serious right?" She explained. I just stood there and let her explain.

"You honesty thinking leaving is easy for me? I have grown up here Tate and I am torn apart by thought that everyone that I love is here and now I'm leaving. But I'm leaving to do something that I love and everyone excepts that... Besides you. I love you Tate to the moon and back and all want is for you to love me enough to let me go to New York and be happy for me" she cried.

"No Charlie I am happy for you. In fact I'm over joyed for you. I know you would never stop me from doing what I love and I've been selfish. Yes I don't want you to leave but then again I want you to go to Juilliard and be the best musician you can be. Please understand that I didn't mean what I said. Go to New York an have the time of you life. Just please don't leave me here without forgiving me. I love you Charlie please don't cry" I pulled her close to as she cried into my chest.

"I hate that I love you so much that I forgive you so easily" she said into my chest.

"I hate that you forgive me so easily. I don't deserve it honestly." I said.

"Tate?" She said looking up at me.

"Yeah." I responded.

"Come with me."

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A/N: Hey guys I know I know. It's been like forever and I'm so sorry!!! My laptop has not been working and that's where I've done most of my writing. I will try and update soon. Pinky promise.