Song Journal

My Hat Used to Be The Only Thing That Made Me Secure, but Now There's You

(Verse 1)
I'm going to get straight to the point
And say that I love you
Your dark whispers and colorful eyes
Spin me in circles
Like the circles under my eyes
That I used to have staying up all night
Talking to you
Until your songs and butterflies sang me to sleep

(Chorus)
I want things back how they were
When inside the twister of us
There were peaches and cookies
Not a forecast of "Partly Cloudy"
I wish I didn't worry so much
About anyone else with you or with me
I just want to go back in time
When the music I listened to wasn't about perfect agony

(Verse 2)
I long to take pictures with you
Capturing the memories
Because you don't know how many times
You get to live life
But if I could replay our times
Then I swear to you I'd never hit pause
So let's live now
In case this is just an illusion like my mind fears

(Chorus)
I want things back how they were
When inside the twister of us
There were peaches and cookies
Not a forecast of "Partly Cloudy"
I wish I didn't worry so much
About anyone else with you or with me
I just want to go back in time
When the music I listened to wasn't about perfect agony

(Rap)
Usually all this comes naturally
It flows when my pen hits the paper, dear
But with you, I can't think my words clear
I'm just scared I'm falling hard
When I should be going backwards
That you're not in love with me
Never have, never will be
That I'm a second choice
That you just want someone
That I'm not good enough
That I'll end up hurting you...
Gosh, why am I so scared of all these things?
They're piling up on me
"But who cares?
It's just love"
I say sarcastically

(Chorus)
I want things back how they were
When inside the twister of us
There were peaches and cookies
Not a forecast of "Partly Cloudy"
I wish I didn't worry so much
About anyone else with you or with me
I just want to go back in time
When the music I listened to wasn't about perfect agony

(Bridge)
Am I too clingy?
Do I worry too much?
Or do I get too jealous?
Did I scare you away with all my flaws?
Or maybe we scared each other
Maybe it was too much at once
But I don't think that's the case
Because I don't want to go slower

(Chorus)
I want things back how they were
When inside the twister of us
There were peaches and cookies
Not a forecast of "Partly Cloudy"
I wish I didn't worry so much
About anyone else with you or with me
I just want to go back in time
When the music I listened to wasn't about perfect agony

Omg. Okay so I wrote this a long time ago, and I was cleaning out my agenda this morning and found it and I was like "omg I haven't posted that to wattpad". So I guess I have now lol. I barely remember what this was about. 💟💟
~Jax