Song Journal

I Hate Confrontation

(Verse 1)
I smile and say you two are cute
But inside I'm breaking
But of course I fake a smile
And say I'm fine
His hand looks better in yours
Than mine ever did
And you flaunt him like a medal
But you never did that to me

(Chorus)
I hear your sobs
And I know it's because of me
But I avoid your eyes
So that you don't see
That I'm upset too
My eyes are swimming with thunderstorms 'cause
Apparently I'm not over you
Like I thought I was

(Verse 2)
They say we were flawless
But truth is we weren't even close
They don't understand
We were a shattered rainbow mirage of perfection
I get so upset
When I've done the exact same to you
I'm such a hypocrite
Tearing you up but not letting you do the same

(Chorus)
I hear your sobs
And I know it's because of me
But I avoid your eyes
So that you don't see
That I'm upset too
My eyes are swimming with thunderstorms 'cause
Apparently I'm not over you
Like I thought I was

(Bridge)
I wish I was him
For many different reasons
But then again I don't
Because we're too different
The memories haunt me like a horror movie
Of your best and my worst nightmares
I want to hold you one last time
But I'm also glad that we're over

(Chorus)
I hear your sobs
And I know it's because of me
But I avoid your eyes
So that you don't see
That I'm upset too
My eyes are swimming with thunderstorms 'cause
Apparently I'm not over you
Like I thought I was

Yeah. So I wrote that the other night at a party like literally in the middle of it happening I wrote a song. Whoops... Haha yeah.. And there's a lot of metaphors in this one. Or maybe not metaphors, but just vague things that may sound like one thing but mean another. Also I wrote like three songs in the past twenty four hours so I'm going to post them in the order that I wrote them. Anyways. I hope you enjoyed it! And have a fantabulous day! 💟💟
~Jax