Song Journal

I Am Not Sexy

I am not sexy
I do not have luscious lips full of collagen
I do not have hills and valleys of curves with a skinny little waist and tummy
I do not have the highest cheek bones or a perfect jaw line
I do not have photoshopped legs or arms
I do not have the perfect body made of plastic
I am not perfect
but I am real
my thighs do touch and my stomach is not flat
my breasts are average sized for a fifteen year old girl and so are my hips
I can rock a dark red lipstick and some eyeliner
and I can also rock a clean face
I have gorgeous green eyes that anyone would be lucky to stare into and if nobody realizes that then I can stare into them myself
my hands are small and soft and they've written and painted masterpieces
my feet are beautiful even without nail polish and they have walked tough journeys that have led me to become the person I am today
my heart is kind and pure
my brain is intelligent and wise
I am special just the way I am
so, no, I am not sexy
I am not a picture of desire and longing and lust
I do not exist to please you and go out of my way to make sure that I look sexy for you
no
I am not sexy
but yes
I am real
I am the child of strength and courage and stardust
I have a wonderful imagination and a creative mind
I am determined and passionate
and I cry more than once a week, but that does not make me weak
from this point on I am no longer a daisy, but a tiger lily
I will speak my mind and be my whole self
I am real and I expect to be treated that way
I am not just some fantasy and I never will be
so if sexy is what you're looking for then look in the other direction and find some barbie doll you can play with

this was just to let out some of my pent-up emotion
~Jax