Titanium: a glee fic (S4)

Cas Gray: My Story

"Cas come on!" My brothers yelled from the car,

Yes, brothers,

I'm a sophomore and I go to school with 5 of my brothers...

yay... 😑🔫

Jace- Senior
Luca- Junior (identical twin)
Carlo- Junior (identical twin)
Me- Sophomore (fraternal twin)
Micheal- Sophomore (fraternal twin)
Dino- Freshman

And if you couldn't tell we are very Italian, it's not just the Irish Catholics that reproduce like rabbits. We live in a mansion... Yeah, my dad owns the Breadstixs chain and we all work there...

Again... yay

My mom is an international business woman, so you could say that we are loaded.

You may think I'm the luckiest girl in the world,

but my story is not a happy one.

It started the summer after freshman year, I had met a girl, her name was Tracy.

We met because I wanted to start riding lessons and her family owns the most prestigious riding farm in Ohio.

The two of us became inseparable, attached at the hip, we did everything together. But then, I developed feelings,

Feelings that I couldn't understand.

I started thinking of Tracy in ways that I didn't my other friends,

And then...

.
*Flashback*

"YES!" I yelled, I got my stubborn horse to finally jump over the hurdle.

"Hey, that was great!" Tracy cheered, I trotted down to a stop right by her and she hooked Flash's (the horse) reigns to the wall.

She held her hand out and helped me down (cause I'm a midget).  When I was almost off, something happened and I ended up falling, Tracy caught my fall and we both ended up on the hay covered ground.

"Oh my god Trac are you ok?" I asked as I got off of her immediately, I stood up and held out a hand to help her up, she groaned and took my hand.  But instead of coming up, she dragged me down.

I landed with an 'oomph' on top of her again, and she started laughing.

"You're so mean!" I exclaimed as I tried to get up again, she kept laughing as we wrestled around.  She ended up on top of me and pinned my arms down.

"What are you gunna do about it?" She challenged smiling, then the laughter died down as we both realized how close we were.  I stared at her face and took in all of her features as she slowly leaned downwards looking at my face, checking to see if I was ok with what was happening.

I got impatient and closed the distance between us,

The kiss was the best thing to ever happen to me in my life, butterflies erupted everywhere and it was the happiest I have ever been,

It was the moment that I realized my truth...

I like girls,

Things got more heated between us when suddenly,

"What the fuck?" We both separated like lightning had struck the ground in between us, My parents stood, staring at us.

"Hi," I started lamely, Tracy quickly buttoned up her shirt.

They stood in silence,

"Ok is there any chance they didn't see that?" Tracy whispered, I shushed her. 

I have never seen my father so absolutely furious in my entire life... He stalked forward in a silent rage.  And I panicked.

I stood up and pulled Tracy up, "Go," I whispered, pushing her towards Flash, "Get out of here Tracy, GO"

"NO!" she said, "I'm not leaving you," I looked her in the eyes, my feelings for her overwhelming me, a tear slid down my face.

"You have too... I've never seen him so angry, I don't know what he'll do." I said panicking, "GO!" I pushed her towards Flash, she climbed on, gave me one last look, and reluctantly galloped away.

I turned around, only to be grabbed by the hair and dragged out of the barn, I was yelling in pain as tears flowed freely down my face. I tried to get him off but he didn't let go of me until we were at the car.  He aggressively let go of my hair letting me fall to the ground, scraping my hands and knees.

"Your sick," my mother said as she pulled me up and seized my arm, I cried out as she dragged me into the car, "We are taking you to see a psychiatrist right now," I wrenched out her grip... I could feel the bruises already.

"NO!" I said,

"How dare you talk back to me after you humiliate us like this!  You ungrateful, spiteful little brat." She raged as she slapped me across the face... Hard.

I stood shocked,

She grabbed my arm and practically threw me into the backseat.

My father slammed the drivers seat closed after he climbed in, we all sat in silence.

"You either like boys, or you don't live under my roof,"

"What..." I asked completely stunned, "daddy I-"

"You are no daughter of mine if you continue on this sick and twisted path, so don't address me as such.  And if you continue to indulge in the ways of the devil... you are dead to me."

"But, why?" I asked, my voice shattering into a million pieces, "I'm still the same as I've always been, the same Cassie, I don't understand,"

Silence,

"No, your a stranger to us now."

.

I was forbidden from seeing Tracy again...

But that day, I learned something very valuable. And my eyes were opened to something that I was blind to before.

I come from a family of violent bigots.

I stood in the school parking lot, my brothers were still waiting for me.  They were told of what had happened and I was immediately treated like I was some convict.  I am under constant watch, never aloud to do anything, I'm actually shocked that I was aloud to even try out for glee club, let alone gain new friends. They have been loosening up on the death grip they had on my social life which is nice, yet very unsettling.

I glanced around to see all the people leaving, then I saw her,

She was walking hand in hand with another girl, and I could feel my insides being ripped from my chest.

But she was happy,

All I had, was stolen seconds... when I could just watch her from afar. I know it sounds stalker-ish but I couldn't help it.

I love her, and I am absolutely miserable, every day of my life that I am not with her.

But if I were to love her, I fear that her safety would be at risk. So if all I get are stolen moments,

Then that is enough.