Say you still love me.

Chapter 10

:~:~:~:~:~:One week later:~:~:~:~:~

'Text

From: Gemma:P

U seen your twitter lately?!'

'To: Gemma:P

No. Why?'

'From: Gemma:P

You may want to:/'

I jumped up from the couch and went into momma's room. Yes I've been staying with her since Louis's been gone, and I feel horrid because Gemma and me are basically best friends. I don't want to hurt Harry.

'Why would it hurt Harry? It's not like he cared about you anyway. I mean who could care about a fat pig like you.'

I've been trying to ignore the voice, but it keeps getting louder.

I signed into twitter. I went to my page  tears came to my eyes when I saw what was on it.

'@laugh_forever What the hell bitch go kill yourself! I don't see why Louis wasted his time on you anyway!'

'@laugh_forever You skanky little slut Louis doesn't need to waste his time on a fat, ugly girl like u!'

'@laugh_forever u come in. Fuck shit up. And leave! Hell no! I will find you and I will kill your ugly ass!'

I stopped and wiped a tear from my cheek.

I hesitated going to Louis page, but I did anyway. A soon as I did I regretted it.

'@laugh_forever I tried to explain! You wouldn't listen. You know what I'm glad I left in the first place! I wish I wouldn't have come back because I wouldn't have had to deal with your shit! I wish i would have never even met you! You may want to redo the makeover because i never want to see you i don't even want to recognize you ever again! Now look You've caused all of this shit, you happy now?!'

That is not my Louis. That's the spoiled popstar monstrosity those people have created!

'There you go again blaming everyone but yourself. All of this is your fault you know? No if course you don't believe it do you? You should. Because everyone else in the world know it now. Your just a fat ugly worthless bitch who shouldn't even be alive!'

:~:~:~:~:~:4 weeks after:~:~:~:~:~:~

"What the hell?! What did you do!" She yelled.

"Momma calm down!"

"This is not okay kelly!"  She broke.

"It's completely normal!"  I know it's not though.

"Kelly don't lie to me. You've barley eaten in four weeks, and what you eat you throw up. I ear you in the middle of the night. You died your hair dark brown, got your nose pierced, and got a tattoo that says 'was it worth it?' across your shoulder blades. also I've seen the cuts kel." What how?

Tears came streaming.

I ran out of the house into the rainy streets of Doncaster.

My phone was going off like usual. It hasn't stopped notifying me about twitter since Louis post. I read them sometimes. Just to make sure the voices are right.

I ran into my house and up to my bedroom. I shut the door behind me.

'Louis! Louis! Louis! Louis! Louis! Louis! Louis! Louis!'

I pulled out a knife I had under my bed and cut.

'One for all the people ive hurt

harry.

Liam.

Zayn.

Niall.

Momma j.

Greg.

Gemma.

My mom.

Dad.'

I pulled off my shirt and saw my fat stomach.

'Louis! Louis! Louis! Louis!' It kept repeating in my head. It never stops!

I brought the knife to my side and cut from where my bra strap is to my hip.

I walked to the mirror and looked at the girl I front of me.

Discussed, I walked away and threw the knife at my wall making it stab into the wood.

I walked back to the mirror and stared at my side.

The voices finally stopped. But I'll still never be able to escape that name.

I walked away from the mirror.

I guess the voices finally got what they wanted. Pain. Because every time i will touch my side it will hurt. And I'll never be able to forget that name. Because it was always be there.

Carved into my side in big letters...

'LOUIS'

Louis P.O.V

3 days after the post.

"Louis!" Was that Harry?

"What?"

"Why the fucking hell would you do that!?!"

Do what?

'You know!'

"Your such a fucking idiot! Kelly never did anything to you! Sure she didn't forgive you but if you were her would you forgive you?!  You can't act like this Louis! You sent that tweet 3 days ago! Look at her page! Look at what's been treading for the past 3 days! You know how she is! We all saw the scars louis! I don't know if she's still doing that but you better pray that you didn't push her over the edge! Because if you did you may have your wish of never seeing her again!"

He stormed out of the room.

"Harry wait!" I ran down the hall to catch up with him.

"No Lou! I can't even look at you right now!"

I stopped chasing him. I slid down the wall, pulled my knees up and ran my fingers through my hair.

Holy Shit...

What have I done.