Say you still love me.

Chapter 17

Kelly's P.O.V

"I want to tell you what happened while you were gone." The words slipped off my tongue making me instantly regret them. Did I really want to tell him everything?

Liam said I should tell him when I was ready, and I think I am. "If its okay." I was completely serious.

"Yeah okay." He knew i was. thats one thing i love about him. He's one of the craziest people ever, but he's serious when he needs to be. He got up and sat on the floor and I sat beside him.

"Well where do I begin?" I looked at him. His eyes had so much emotion in them and yet they seemed almost emotionless.  "Well after you left I didn't talk to jay much. It got to where we didn't talk at all actually. Around the time me and you stopped talking, or well you stopped." I could see that hurt him but honestly it didn't faze me. I felt so much then, and he should know. "I thought I had done something. I thought you hated me or were embarrassed of me. So that's when i started." I know he knew what I was talking about. "Well Jamie didn't like it so he slapped me. He found pleasure in my pain I guess because it only got worse." He looked horrified. "And y-you know w-what" I was falling apart.  I was going to lose it. "The worst part is? I already told you all this in the voicemails I left you." He froze, his lips parted slightly but no words came out. There's nothing he can say anyway so why try right?. "I guess you really didn't listen to them did you?" I sighed and stood up. I'm mad no enraged. This guy oh my god really? I'm So pathetic! I think I can trust the one who left me in the cold! Yeah sure. Nice choice Kelly! Nice one! No you know what never mind. "You know what? I really don't feel like telling you Again." I walked to the door and slammed it behind me. I was hit by the freezing wind and drizzle of rain as I walked down the stairs. The rain was starting to sting as I heard the door open and I picked up my pace.

"Stop Kelly please!" He sounded oddly close. he grabbed my hand, I yanked it away and looked at him. Damn how's he so fast? 

"Just leave me alone for a while Louis." I said calmly as i turned and began to walk again. Good job you handled that very we-

"I'm sorry." He grabbed my shoulder turning me around. Oh he'll no forget calm and grownup! He's gonna get an earful.

"Guess what louis? I thought I was going to trust you again. I thought I was okay with you coming back. But no I'm not okay. I was okay with you following your dream. I was okay with it. But I wasn't okay when Jamie beat me. I wasn't okay when I called you crying. I wasn't okay louis! I'm sorry that I thought I could tell you everything. I'm sorry I thought I could let you back in! But I cant. I just can't okay." I yanked my shoulder away from him and walked down the road.

"Please kelly. Forgive me." I heard him say from a few feet behind me. I turned to look at him. I saw tears streaming out of his beautiful blue eyes. Except now they were filled with sorrow and regret. Not there usual happy and exited look.

"If you would've asked me that Two years ago. I would've said okay. But now. I'm sorry Louis I just can't." I turned and walked away. Louis didn't come after me this time. Maybe he had finally realized I was serious. 

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It had started a down pour so I ran into a coffee shop, and sat in a booth. Damn it! I knew i couldn't trust him again. We just had that whole "it's a battle" conversation too! He's suppose to help me not make it worse! But how did he make it worse?

He didn't.

I can't trust him though.

Why?

Because he,

wait.

theres no reason for me not to trust him he didn't do anything wrong! Im such an idiot! I overreacted now he's probably gone. I heard the door open.

"Mind if I join you?" I knew who she was before she finished the sentence.

"Oh my god Gemma!" I jumped up and hugged her letting a few tears I had been holding back fall. "I missed you so much." She tightened her grip around me.

"Then why the fuck didn't you call?" She laughed. She doesn't need to know. It's okay, I can still have her at least. I need someone to talk to. I just hope she's willing to listen more than she already has. But I can't ask that of her can i? Oh who cares! She's staying myself can get over it.

"It doesn't matter anymore, I'm so glad your here." I pulled back. "What have you been doing?" She smile and we sat in the booth, me facing the door and her facing the wall.

"Well I got my acceptance letter today." I jumped up and hugged her.

"Oh my god congrats gem! I'm so happy for you!" I yelled causing everyone to stare at me but I don't cAre. She pulled out a paper and pretended to read it.

"Yeah and Apparently I'm in need of a roomy." She looked at me with hopeful eyes. I couldn't resist that face like what the hell. Her and Harry both do that exact face an it's annoying, but adorable.

"Well now all we have to do is figure out what color to paint the floors." She screeched and hugged me so tight I couldn't breathe.

"What the hell do you mean by painting the floors?" she laughed. really this girl has no imagination.

"Well once you figure out what your going to do with the room before you move everything in you imagine what color you want the floors to be." She looked at me like I was crazy. "Hey trust me it'll be amazing." I laughed and she sighed.

"Have you done this before?" She's so stupid.

"You've been in my room. You've seen my masterpiece! Don't act like you haven't!" I yelled at her causing Everyone to once again stare at me.

"Oh yeah." Her phone started ringing, she laughed as she pulled it out of her pocket. I saw the Harry's name light up across the screen as she slid the lock button to answer the call.

"Hey Haz what's up?" There was a loud crash on the other end of the phone which caused me to look at her. She shrugged.

"Harry clam down." He was panicking.

"I don't know!" There was another crash.

I couldn't take the wanting to know what was happening anymore. I pulled her out of the booth and outside she put the phone on speaker.

"Don't do it mate." Harry said to someone who was with him. Oh my god is he like getti-

My thoughts were cut off by another loud crash an the sound of glass breaking.

"Goddamn it Louis stop!" I froze.

Louis, What the hell?

I grabbed the phone from Gemma.

"Harry calm him down." I said calmly into the phone as I took it off speakerphone.

"Kelly? What the fuck did you do?!" He shouted through the phone I could tell he was worried.

"I was stupid ill be there soon just don't let him hurt himself!" I basically was begging Harry.

"Okay." The line was cut and I looked at gem.

"we need to go, now."