Say you still love me.

Chapter 18

She parked the car, I jumped out of it and started running to the door. I opened it and the flat was a wreck. Literally like everywhere there was glass and shit.

Oh my god why the fuck did I over react?! Damn. His anger issues got worse didn't they? Wait louis! Where is he. I ne-

There was a loud crash from upstairs.

I bolted up them and ran towards the yelling.

"Harry get the fuck off me!" I heard him yell.

"Louis stop, do you want her to see you like this?! Stop damn it." Goddamn it how big is this place?!

"She's not coming! I messed up again and lost her! Now Get the fuck off me!"

"No Louis! Stop this now!" I heard a thump.

"You don't get it!" I stopped in the doorway I saw Harry on his back on the floor with Louis on top of him he held Harry's shirt collar and was yelling in his face. "She's gone damn it! What is there now?! I messed up three years ago! She needed me and I wasn't fucking there harry! You don't get how much hurts me! It feels like everything I've done isn't worth it because She's gone!" I saw his grip on Harry's collar loosen I heard his shaky breath. "I wasn't there." He was crying. I felt my eyes begin to water. This is all my fault! What the fuck got into me?!

"I'm so sorry Lou." I saw him stiffen. He turned around and looked at me. He stood up and took three steps towards me. "I-I don't know what got into me... All my emotions just flooded me I guess. I'm so sorry I should have never said anything about what happened. I just... I don't know..." I looked at the floor and watched a tear fall from my face onto the cold wood. I looked back up at him. "This is all my fault." He looked shocked. "If I would have never gone with Greg that day everything would be normal." I felt him pull my face up to where I was looking straight into his eyes.

"Im s-sorry Louis." His watery eyes widened slightly.

"Why?" He looked like he could brake at any point, one word could brake him and he'd be gone forever. But then his eyes became dark, he stiffened and stepped back. "Why'd you come back?" Was he mad?

"I-I should've never said those things. I over reacted an-"

"Oh so you overreacted? Really!" He yelled. "Here I am thinking it's all my fault but no. Because it was yours!" I stepped back as he stepped towards me. This has only happened one other time and he was 16 and I was 14.

"Louis pleas-" I swear he was about to slap me.

"No Just shut up!" He yelled coming  closer until I was pushed against the wall and he was only inches from my face. "Why did you come back?" He spat. What's wrong with him?! He was just on the floor crying now this! He really needs to get help, though I used to tell him at least twice a day he never listens.

"Stop Louis. Get away from me."I said trying to push off the wall but he grabbed my wrists and held them to the wall. I yelped in pain but he didn't move. "Let me go." He was just starring at me. Like trying to figure out a puzzle or something. "Louis! Get the fuck off of me!" I yelled in his face.

His eyes lightened and went wide but in a second they were dark and Steele again.

"Why? Little Princess getting scared?" This is just like last time. "Come on tell me. Do I scare little miss perfect." I had tears in my eyes again. "Go on cry." He said so coldly it sounded like I absolutely disgusted him.

"Get off me Louis." i tried to pull away but he pulled me back. "Let me go damn it." I said looking straight at him. He shook his head no. I pushed him off and started walking to the door.

He grabbed me by the sides and shoved me back against the wall. I almost screamed in pain. All of a sudden my side felt cold, he reopened the cuts. I gripped my side and his eyes went normal. He backed up and ran his hand through his hair. He turned around and looked back at me with tears in his eyes.

"Kel-"

"You know what?! Fuck you Louis Tomlinson!" I yelled as i ran out of the room and down the stairs. When I got to the bottom both Harry and Gemma were looking at me. I froze. I just realized I was crying.

"Kelly what happened." Harry said coming closer.

I jumped and ran out the door past the cars until I was so far from there I didn't have to worry about any of them.