Jenna (IN EDITING)

Chapter Forty

I opened my eyes to a hospital room scene, everything around me seemed so familiar maybe because I'm been here so many times before. I bought my right hand to my left and felt the thick white bandage on my wrist from where I cut in the bathtub. Finally, I brought it up to my neck that burned to touch. I survived? I survived! Oh my gosh, I actually survived my suicide attempt. This had to be my special gift from god, a second chance.

"You're awake!" A voice screamed. I turned my head to see a sight I didn't think I'd ever see. Alex.

"What are you doing here? Of all people to visit me!" I kind of snapped.

"He told me everything," Alex said.

"Who?"

"David. I should of asked your part of the story. I tried calling and calling yesterday, but you wouldn't pick up. So I decided to visit you, and I found you lying on the floor with a rope around your neck!" Cried Alex. "I was so freakin' scared, okay? The one person I loved was on the floor with hardly a pulse and I was frightened she wouldn't live. I can't take it being without you. I would of went all Romeo and Juliet."

"You found me?" I asked. "I was on the floor?"

"The rope snapped, that's how I knew there was some hope left. I called for an ambulance and I haven't left your side since," he told me. "I was so scared I lost you! If you died it would of been my blood, and Katrina's. I'm going to kill her!"

"Aren't you her boyfriend?" I sighed.

"No! She attempted to get back with me but she still cheated on me more than you could ever do. I hate her guts. I want her to die," Alex took my bandaged hand. "All I ever wanted to do was get back together with you. But I thought you cheated, everyone made it seem like you did. But you didn't, and I feel like a monster for yelling at you. I don't hate you! I never could, I love you 'til the world goes black."

"I always loved you Alex, since you first touched me by pushing me down. I will never stop loving you, and I mean it. I love you Alex Newman," I told the truth for once in my life.

"Look who's awake!" A nurse walked in on us. "I guess your wondering on your condition Mrs. Wells!"

"Yes, I want to know the consequences of my mistakes," I waited for her response.

"Fifteen stitches on your waist, nothing more. You're lucky," The nurse looked at her chart. It was the same one I obsessed over her bun when Kathleen was put in the hospital a month ago. Except she was wearing her hair down now and half bright blue scrubs. "And your baby is doing fine."

"Wait what?" I gasped, baby? I wasn't pregnant.

"You didn't know you were pregnant?" She wide eyed me.

"No!" That's when I remembered I missed my periods in both November and December. It started after Alex and I after the night where Kathleen was in the hospital and I got in a fight with Nana. Explains the ice cream cravings and my miniature weight gain. "I missed two periods."

"What? And you didn't notice?" Alex acted like he was surprise. How did he not notice? I wasn't pale and throwing up my guts.

"Sorry for the stress you put me under, idiot," I told him.

"Would you like to see the baby?" The nurse, who I finally say their name tag and was named Alli, asked us.

"Well duh," Alex answered for me.

"I'll be right back," Alli left the room. Alex looked at me instantly.

"We're going to be parents, Jenna! Parents!" Alex rejoiced.

"What if it's David's?" I sighed once again.

"It's still mine, not matter what it's ours!" Alex told me. He kissed me softly and then pulled the sheets and kissed my exposed belly. "Kiss for the mommy and a kiss for her." He began to smile like a idiot.

"Her? Who says it's a girl?" I raised a eyebrow bringing the blanket back over my stomach.

"It's not a girl, it's a Christine!" Alex took my hand and held it, rubbing my bandage with his thumb. Christine? He wanted to name a girl, Christine? I held him tight. He gave me exactly what I wanted to hear.

Alli came back into the room with a machine I identified in movie as an ultrasound machine. She brought it over close to me and exposed my stomach to a cold liquid. I wanted in awe with Alex as Alli rubbed against my stomach and I could see my baby move around and be a baby. It felt good to know I was gaining weight not because I was eating my way out of a break up, but instead creating a little mini me inside of my stomach.

She, he, was beautiful. I didn't even suspect I was pregnant, there was no clues about it at all expect for my cravings and missed periods but I didn't notice that at all. Personally, I never even wanted child, ever. I didn't want to be like Tanya. But if this whole situation didn't explain to me that I wasn't at all like Tanya, I wanted this child. I didn't care if I had to clean up after it, watch it grow up and fade away from my reach, it was my child. A part of me. Maybe that's what Tanya felt when she found out about about Kay, maybe for a minute she cared. And she lost her baby, she lost then. For a absolute second I realized why she killed herself, to be together with the children she lost and left me because she knew one way or another I would survive. I did.

"It's too early to tell what sex it is yet," Alli told us. "But we can probably tell in a couple months."

"I don't want to know," I announced. "I want it to be a surprise. Take it the old fashion way."

She cleaned my stomach off of the liquid and left again. I asked Alex for his phone so I could call Kathleen, who may have been worried sick about me or still asleep not knowing about what had happened tonight. She picked up the phone right away.

"Alex?" She mumbled.

"Jenna!" I greeted.

"Oh, why do you have Alex's phone? Are you okay?" She questioned me.

"I had an accident. I have big news, can you come to the hospital?" I asked her.

"Hospital? What! I'll be there in five," She hung up and I handed Alex back her phone.

"What does this mean for us?" I looked at him.

"Be my girlfriend once again? Start over on a new slate," Alex's eyes fluttered in hope of that I would say yes.

"Might as well."

***

"I'm going to be a godmother!" Kathleen rejoiced, chewing on bacon that she brought with her. No matter what, her bacon wouldn't be left home.

"Who said that?" I chuckled.

"Me!" Kathleen grinned.

"Okay then," Alex said.

Nana bolted into the room and caught her breath. "Jenna, he's asking for you!" She screamed happily.

"Who Nana?"I wondered.

"Your father, he's awake."