Unfixable : Kian Lawley & Jc Caylen

Pretend

KIANS P.O.V

I sigh as I open the door to my car and get in.

"are you ok?" asks Mandy "You're as white as a ghost"

"Yea" I answer not wanting to explain

"ok."

She's probably really fucking confused right now but I don't really care. I don't even want to go to the fucking club anymore.

"...do you want to talk about it?" she asks calmly

"obviously not" I huff, instantly regretting my harsh words

"I'm sorry" she says

"for what?"

"I don't know. I don't know what I did, but I don't want to see you like this" she answers

Wow this girl is too nice

"It's not your fault" I answer

After a moment of silence she speaks up again

"Are we going to be anything or is this just ...a fling" she asks

"I'm fine with either one" she adds quickly

I shrug

"I don't want anything serious, just someone to keep me occupied" I answer honestly

She seems stunned by my answer but doesn't say anything. Instead she just nods her head.

I can't be with anyone right now. Not with Luna invading my every thought. Ever since I fucking kissed her she's all I can think about. And now, knowing about what happened with Alex I care about her. It's a strange feeling to genuinely care for someone. To be honest, I usually wouldn't give a fuck.

I can't just ignore Maddy, but I don't want to be with her either. I find myself smiling like an idiot as I recall Luna telling me all the details of Alex's horrible kissing. Mandy probably thinks I'm insane. Holy fucking shit I just had the most amazing idea ever. I'll just pretend to be the worst fucking kisser in the world and then she wont want to be with me. I debate wether I should do it in my head. Fuck it. I'm doing it.

I'm not going to go far with Mandy tonight but I sure as hell am gonna have fun with this.

We pull up to the club and she smiles when I open the door for her. She puts out her hand for me to hold it but I pretend not to notice. What fucking part of 'someone to keep me occupied' does she not understand.

The music fills my ears and I start to feel a little bad for Mandy. I'm just using her as a distraction. But she knows that, so I guess it's not wrong.

"Do you want anything to drink?" I ask

She shakes her head no so I just order a beer for myself. I show the bartender my fake ID and he doesn't seem to approve but doesn't say anything.

"Do you want to dance?" she asks

I shake my head no. Hell no. If there is one thing I can't do it is dance. I'm too tall and it just ends up looking awkward.