cherish the love we had

Part XXVIII

Goodbye my love!

Letter;

Before anything else I would like to greet you a happy birthday though its kinda late but I'll never forget that day when I came to your house to give you my gift personally but it turned out that my presence is not that important to you anymore since you found someone else & I can see it in your face so I leave the two of you then. Upon reading this I'm somewhere else finding peace and solace within me as I go on with my life and so do you. I only wrote when I am falling in love, or falling apart. It's a privilege to be loved by you. All I want is to be with you, it's as simple, and as complicated as that. Now it's only a dream and no longer can come true. I understand that nobody understands me, but I can't be someone I'm not. Im so good at beginnings, but in the end I always seem to destroy everything including myself. I just want you to be happy if that's with me or with someone else or with nobody. It's exciting when you find parts of yourself in someone else, if anyone else were to kiss me, all they would taste is your name. What I have with you, I don't want with anyone else. And I'll never ask you to be anything other than exactly you. I think of you so often you have no idea how I hid my deepest feelings so well I forgot where I placed them. I have been staying awake at nights, wondering if I should tell you. I'm sorry for my inability to let important things go, maybe I love too much and maybe I show too little. I pray all the parts of you that I remember are still there. I pray also that you're happy even if it's not with me. I have so much of you in my heart. And now you're with someone else and I must go home alone to think about how long it takes to heal an alien heart, but the heart has its own memory and I have forgotten nothing though real relationships are hard to find but they're worth it in the end. And I think that's what love is about. It's good if we better off as friends as I put an end to this. Remember you can count on me always.

P.S. (Alex)

Tears flowing down all over her face after reading it. What the hell is wrong with him? She doesn't know what he's talking about if only he had known that she's waiting for him on her birthday but he didn't come. She dialed his phone yet got no answer but she kept on dialing yet no feedback in return, instead she leaves a message hoping he can get back to her as soon as he read it. She never loses hope eventhough she didn't know where the hell he was. She contacted all the people who are close to him maybe they know exactly where he might be right now. She's afraid that this time she may lose him forever if they can't sort out things once and for all. What now, will she ever cherish the love they had? Will they be able to reconcile their differences? Will there be a chance for them to be back in each other's arm? She's been hopeful that they may able to fix things between them. First she should find him and the rest will follow. She can't think straight now but to rest. Let tomorrow find its way then and when she wake up she has all the answers to all her questions and that will be the best gift she ever had.

Alex didn't know whether to withdraw his words and tell her that he was just being cynical & bemused about the things that has been happening to them but he came to a point wherein he has reached the limit so he decided to end their relationship for good though he's been hurt so bad thus he can't do anything to win her back but to be his friend forever. It takes time for him to fall in love again or it will never happen again. He's been thinking too much now, all he has to do is rest and enjoy his life and move on.