The Start of a New Year

October 1 2015

So we've been in school for a month so far....whatever, not that I care. Well anyway shoutout to my mom because it was her birthday yesterday. And about the match, we won. I wasn't able to finish my match because it started to rain which made the courts slippery. Besides, I slipped so the coaches had to call it because it was getting unsafe. I twisted my ankle but whatever, it's ok now. It was a tie anyway so I guess it was a win-win. Well yeah, today was the last day of tennis and I'm like really sad. But not only because of that. I also just figured out that...I can't go to homecoming. I'm actually crying. I was really looking forward to going. But now I can't go because I have to go to Canada. My mom actually wanted me to go with a boy, and I was actually excited, but now I can't even go. I was going to go with my friend but I guess not. She was being rude to me today anyway so I honestly could care less. I don't need that kind of treatment in my life, my life is already bad and stressful and I don't need my only friends to start turning on me. I seriously just don't even care anymore. Maybe next year I'll just be home schooled so I don't need to worry about stupid friends. Who needs them anyway, I dont, because they obviously don't need me, if I'm that insignificant, then just don't even bother. I'm going to school to learn anyway. I don't want friends if they not going to make me happy. Besides that's not the only reason why I don't like school anymore...I'm just tired of missing out on everything. I can't do after school activities, and if I do, my parents are mad about it and make me regret it. I always have to miss school for reasons that aren't even that important. I mean I know I have to go to Canada to say bye to my family (because they left to Canada today amd they're going back to Morocco in like, 3 weeks) but still, my parents only do it when it's convenient for them. Like seriously. They know I hate missing school and yet they still try to make me miss as many days as possible. But of course when I'm actually sick and can't go to school they make me go anyway. I'm just tired of this. And now, homecoming which is probably supposed to be the biggest night of my life (besides my graduation and wedding) is ruined because I can't even go in the first place. Just no. Like seriously. I'm done. I'm probably doing home school next year. And i won't miss anything or anyone. I don't need anyone, I've always been anti social anyway. And sorry if any of my friends are reading this. I just really want to die.

Well I might as well finish with something positive. Since tennis is over I might start taking tennis lessons with Mufasa Jr. At least he's nice to me no matter what. Maybe I should get friends like him. Well whatever. I know I said I'll put some Golden time theme songs but I don't feel like it....actually I'll put one up because it's sad. In a way, it kinda describes how I feel....but not the same situation. This one is my 3rd favorite... I forgot the name. It's the 2nd opening. Anyway I'm going. Toots for now....or whenever.