[CC's POV]
I'm so mean to this creature yet he's still good to me. Why Lelouch? Why?!
"I'm not crying." sabi ko tas tumayo ako at nagbihis. "Oh really?" asar niya. "It's true," sabi ko tas lumabas ako ng banyo na nakagiti. "I am zero, I wear a mask to hide my true identity but you hide your feelings better than me as I hide my personality." sabi niya tas umupo siya sa kama ko. His words are really hitting me on point.
"Really?" tanong ko, tumango siya. "Your room is really big huh?" sabi niya. "It's not that big though." sabi ko at umupo ako sa tabi niya. "It's three times bigger than my dorm." sabi niya.
"You're exaggerating."
"But it's the truth."
"Whatever," sabi ko. Wala nakong maibatong salita sakanya e. Ganun naman ako lagi kapag magkasama kami e. Dipende nalang kung galit ako sakanya, e talagang mababara ko siya.
"It's funny to think that a small girl like you lives in a big house like this. Especially having a huge room like this really makes you feel like a little doll." sabi niya. "Well I'm lucky to live in a place like this." sabi ko. "You really are." sabi niya.
"After living a living hell, I finally had a place to call home. It's been ages since I had a home. It feels so great to feel important especially when that person treats you as his/her priority. It's been a long time since I've felt so special to someone.
I'm thanking Mrs. Stewenheart for adopting me and making me feel special everyday. I've never felt a mother's love since the nun who took care of me died."
"It must be hard for you."
"Not really,"
"Well I guess we're just on the same page. But the diffrence is, I grew up with my mother. But then, she died. I felt loneliness but everytime I see Nunally, I'm not lonely anymore. She's the reason why I'm still fighting and she's the reason why I'm still living.
I really wanted to die since mom died but I thought about Nunally. Who will take care of her if I killed myself? No one will be there for her except me. Dad is too irresponsible to do it, he even kicked us out on our own house after mom died. He said that we'll be just a hindrance if we will still live with him.
That's why I became an independent guy. I struggled hard to go to school and as I go back home, I cook dinner for the two of us. Nunally is blind and she can't walk so she can't help me doing household chores. As morning comes, I wake up early and cook breakfast for the two of us. I help her to take a bath, I help her change her clothes and I cook lunch for us."
"You're an amazing brother."
"Whenever I see Nunally smile, all my tireness goes away. I feel relieved, like I'm not feeling any pain at all. Nunally's smile is-," putol niya ng bigla siyang naluha. Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. Hindi ko pa siya nakikitang umiyak ng ganon. A guy's tears are really meaningful.
"The greatest thing on earth. Stop crying, it doesn't suit you." sabi ko. Niyakap niya rin ako ng mahigpit at di nagtagal ang yakap namin.
Tinitigan niya ako at hinaplos ang pisngi ko. "I'm glad that I have her just like I have you." sabi niya at bigla akong namula. Teka ba't ako namumula!
"We're accomplices Lelouch kaya dapat hanggang dito lang tayo." sabi ko tas inalis ko yung kamay niya sa'kin pero bigla nalang niyang hinatak yung kamay ko. Dumiretso yung mukha ko sa dibdib niya at niyakap niya ako. "I don't mind being more than accomplices with you. Before I met you, I really want you to be my girlfriend. We even had a bet, remember?" sabi niya. "It's true but you know that I have no interest in you." sabi ko.
"I'll make you want me and I'll wait for that time."
"Good luck,"
"I'll never give up."
"We'll see about that." sabi ko tas tinulak ko siya pero hinatak niya ako at pareho kaming napahiga sa kama. "You're already falling for me huh?" asar niya. "ASA!" sabi ko.
"CC?"
"Bakit?"
"You know that it's already 12 a.m. right?"
"And so?"
"Nothing," sabi niya. Seriously? What's with you? 12 a.m. hmmm. Habang nakahiga ako sakanya, naririnig ko yung mabilis na tibok ng puso niya.
"Do you really want to be more than accomplices with me?" tanong ko at lalong bumilis yung tibok. "Why did you asked me all of a sudden?" tanong niya. "What will happen if I kiss you right now?" tanong ko at mas lalong bumilis yung tibok ng puso niya. Ang sarap niyang pagtripan haha. Bumangon ako para pagtripan ko siyang halikan ng bigla niya ako hinatak at...
*smooch*
Ayun yung ending, ako yung nahalikan. Ganun ba talaga 'yon? Mahuhulog ka sa sarili mong patibong? Hinalikan ko lang siya pabalik, no other feelings. Binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at nakita ko siyang nakapikit at namumula.
Di ko binigyan ng ibang kahulugan yung nangyayari sa'min kasi alam kong gusto lang talaga ni Lelouch na pagtripan ako. Pero ang mas ikinagulat ko ay bigla niyang hinaplos ang mukha ko at naging mas mahinahon yung halik niya. Yung para bang pinararating niya na talaga yung nararamdaman niya.
After 3 minutes tumigil na kami at nung tumigil kami, nagkatitigan kami. Nakita ko siyang namumula. Sa buong buhay ko hindi pa ako nakakita ng lalaking nahihiya at namumula na pero kaya paring makipagtitigan ng diretso sa mata mo.
Kasi yung mga lalaking minahal ko dati matatawag mo lang talaga na "magkasama" kami kaso wala naman talagang tunay na nagmamahal sa'kin sa lahat ng mga lalaking nakasama ko. Kung hindi dahil sa geass ko, wala talagang magmamahal sa'kin.
Natuto at natauhan ako sa mga pinaggagagawa ko noon na hindi dapat pinipilit ang isang taong mahalin ka dahil darating ang panahon na sila na mismo ang lalapit sa'yo at mamahalin ka.
Nakipagtitigan lang ako sakanya magdamag at kailangang mabasag ang katahimikang ito. "Lelouch di ka pa ba napapagod makipagtitigan?" tanong ko. "Why would I get tired to look at the person that I love?" sabi niya at bigla ko nang na-realize ang lahat.
"Di mo kailangang mapagod sa taong mahal mo kasi kapag mahal mo, gagawin mo ang lahat para sakanya."
Yan ang na-realize ko sa mga sinabi ni Lelouch. "I feel more happy because there are some guys who can't look straight at the girl's eyes. I feel blessed because you're different from the girls that I've met before."
Nagising ako bigla doon sa "...because you're different from the girls that I've met before." Ibig sabihin pareho kami na marami nang nakasama. Di ko alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa dahil iba ako sa mga nakasama niya o mainis kasi binaggit niya yung nga babaing nakasama niya noon. Ewan mixed emotions!
*snap*
"Hey, are you listening?"
"What we're you saying?"
"See, you're not listening. Is there something in your mind? You look puzzled."
"I'm just sleepy,"
"Oh okay, come here." sabi niya tas hinatak niya yung kamay ko at napahiga ako sa dibdib niya. Hinaplos-haplos niya yung ulo ko at hinawakan ang kamay ko.
"Can I do this until you fall asleep?"
"Yeah,"
"Okay, good mornight CC.
"Good mornight," sabi ko at pinikit ko na ang mga mata ko.
