More Than A Fan (Justin Bieber Fan Fiction)

Chapter 23: Change

Justin's POV

3 WEEKS LATER

I sat on the edge of the stage, dangling my feet. I just finished rehearsals for the show tonight. My first show back. I'm nervous. I don't remember any of my other shows.

"Aye bro how are you?" Chris, one of my dancers, sat beside me.

"I'm good man, you?"

"I'm good. That was a good rehearsal today. It's good to have you back."

"It felt a little weird but I'm really excited to be back," I smiled.

"I know Lizzy is happy."

"And how would you know that?" I asked.

"Lizzy hasn't been herself since the accident. She feels like she lost you. She used to crack jokes and smile constantly and she was always the best person in the room. Now she's quiet and closed off and she's shy and she just looks sad. But today, I saw her smile for the first time in a long time."

"I'm sorry to hear that," I stood up and walked away.

Lizzy was talking to Maggie and Kaili and I walked over to her and grabbed her hand. I pulled her to the side and she looked at me.

"Whats going on?" I asked her.

"What do you mean?"

"Why have you been acting so different?"

"I don't know Justin, in case you didn't notice I'm a little depressed at the fact that the only person I loved in this world forgot me and doesn't believe the shit I say and doesn't even try to make me happy despite all that's happened."

"Lizzy I'm trying," it took everything not to yell. "But I just need time. It's selfish of you to think all of that."

"Selfish? Are you kidding me Justin? I am beyond selfish. I could've quit my job, I could've left you here, I could completely ignore you. Justin I could leave just as easily as I came into your life. But you wouldn't know so."

"Lizzy do you think I enjoy not remembering anything? I've been struggling everyday. I want to remember us. I want to remember you. But I can't and you have to accept that."

"I don't think it'll be that easy for me. It's so hard to forget what we had," she was crying now.

"Well Lizzy that's how it is. And I'm sorry life sucks."

"No, you know what sucks?" She said.

"What?"

"The fact that I look at you and I remember everything. Every little detail of everything we ever had. The pain, the happiness, the crying, the laughing. Everything and you just look at me as some fan."

I couldn't say anything. I didn't know what to say. She was right. She walked away and I sat down, covering my face as I cried.

"Justin you okay?" Alfredo asked me.

For the first time since the I was in the hospital I actually cried and Alfredo hugged me. I cried so hard and I couldn't stop.

"It'll be okay Justin," Alfredo said. "Everything will be okay."

"Alfredo, I don't know what to do. I want to be with her but I don't know if it'll be enough for her. I don't know if I'll ever be what I was to her before."

"Well you never know if you don't try," Alfredo said. "Just calm down okay?"

I nodded and he patted my back, "listen... Lizzy is a special girl. She's been through a lot. Don't be upset if she's stubborn because she's not the type of person to let her guard down so easily. And now she's fragile, right now more than ever. And so are you. The two of you just need to talk. Just sit down and talk about everything. Just be careful with her. Because you don't want to lose her ever. You will regret it."