Not Good Enough (James McVey/Connor Ball - Jonnor) (1/2)

Chapter 19 - Brad's Discovery

Brad's POV:

I stretch in my bed and smile when I hear someone shuffling around next to me. I turn my head and see Lauren moving about, but still asleep. I get the sudden urge to use the bathroom. I sit up slowly and swing my legs around the side of the bed before standing up and almost falling over as my legs are still sleepy. I sit down on the bed and stretch my legs. 'Morning' a voice says and I smile before turning around 'morning Lauren'. Lauren smiles and asks 'where you going?'. I smile back 'I need the loo'. Lauren nods 'ok, don't be too long'. I stand up and head out of the bedroom door. 

I enter the bathroom and close the door behind me. I turn around and step forward and tread on something. I lift my foot up and see that it is a razor. I look at the floor confused and pick it up, noticing that the blades were missing meaning that it was just the plastic. I panic and check my foot, luckily they weren't stuck in my foot. I tap my chin confused, until it finally clicks that someone must've used them. If someone did use them, then it would be 3 people in my opinion. Connor because hes been through a lot, Anastasia because she won't talk to anyone and Tristan, who I highly doubt would do this. But Connor and Anastasia are my main guesses. Unless its Joe's from shaving, but Joe wouldn't take the blades out. I think I need to speak to Connor and Anastasia. 

As I do my business in the bathroom and wash my hands, I go into Lauren and smile 'I'm gonna need to go and wake James up ready for the interview'. Lauren sighs but nods 'have fun today'. I walk over and kiss her on the head 'thanks, and you'. I pick up a top and carry it with me as I open Connor and James' door. James pops his head up and smiles 'sssshhhhh, I've just gotten him back to sleep'. I nod 'we have to go to the interview today' I whisper and his eyes go wide 'I'd forgotten about that' he says. I roll my eyes 'get up soon then'. James nods and I close the door behind me. I sigh and walk down the stairs. 

I head into the kitchen and turn the kettle on to make myself a drink. I lean against the side and look across at the hand print on the far counter. We still need to find out who did that, in the end if no one confesses to it then we might have to get the police involved. 'Morning Brad', I look towards the door and see Tristan. 'You ok Tris?' I ask noticing his red, puffy eye. Tristan just smiles and nods. Should I ask him about the blades missing or ask Connor or Anastasia first? 'Brad, can I ask you something?' Tristan ask and I smile and nod. 'Am I good enough for Anastasia?' he asks nervously. I sigh 'Tristan, or course you are. She's just a little confused right now. You need to try and stay calm and when this all gets sorted, you'll be much happier'. Tristan smiles a little 'I suppose your right, I hope she believes me'. I rub his shoulder with my hand 'if she doesn't at first, then prove to her that you love her and fight for her love'. Tristan nods and he looks at me 'thank you Brad'. I smile and the kettle pops 'would you like a drink?'. Tristan smiles again 'go on then'. 

Connor's POV:

I feel someone moving and I open my eyes slowly. I see James slowly detaching himself from me slowly. I stay still and pretend to be asleep. James places a kiss on my forehead 'I love you Con, sleep tight'. He slips a shirt on and I hear the door open and then close quietly. I open one eye slowly and notice that no one is in the room. I inhale deeply and then exhale. I bet he doesn't want to lie with me anymore because I've crushed him. Why did I have to lay on his chest? I hear someone moving about outside the door and I close my eyes and pretend to be asleep as the door opens again. I hear the drawers open and I hope its not the drawer where I hid the blades. I hid them under all my hoodies and jumpers when I got this one out. 

I open one eye to peek out and see him in my hoody and jumper drawer. I pretend to wake up and stretch. James looks over at me and smiles 'good morning beautiful'. I hide my face with the covers and blush, but then it hits me, what if he's lying and just trying to make me happy because he hates me being moody? I lift my head out of the covers and smile at him 'morning Jamesy'. James walks over to me and climbs onto the bed next to me. I snuggle up to him and he smiles 'I've got to go to that interview today Con, will you be ok with Lauren today?'. I nod and snuggle into him even more 'yes Jamesy'. James kisses my forehead and climbs up. 'Love you Con, I'm just a phone call away if you need me' James smiles and I nod and close my eyes. 

As James leaves the room, I sigh of relief when I know that he didn't find the hidden blades. I close my eyes and lay my head back on the pillow. Did he really mean that he loved me? Plus I don't want to get him told off at the interview. Today I think I'm just going to keep myself to myself. 

Tristan's POV:

I take a sip from my hot drink as well as Brad does. It's awkwardly quiet and no one knows what to talk about. I start to hear footsteps come down the stairs and I look towards the living room doorway and I see James get to the bottom of the stairs. 'Morning James' I smile and he waves back 'morning Tris, you ok now?'. I nod 'yes thanks'. James takes a seat next to Brad and I smile at them both 'do you know where your going for the interview?'. Brad nods 'were going to be interviewed by Nick Grimshaw'. I nod 'oh ok'. The front door knocks and James stands up 'I'll get it, its probably Joe'. I nod and James heads out of the kitchen. Brad looks at me 'Tris remember, if you truly love her. Make sure that she knows that you will do anything for her'. I smile and nod 'thank you'.

James enters the kitchen again 'its Joe, we've gotta go'. Brad nods 'see ya later Tris'. I wave goodbye to them both 'good luck today you 2'. They both smile 'thanks' James says. I hear the front door close, but I hear someone in the living room. 'Brad, James please don't sneak up on me' I call through, but I get no reply and the footsteps stop. I turn around and I go shy and not sure what to say when I see Anastasia in the doorway looking at the floor.

Lauren's POV:

I sit up slowly and stretch. I wipe my hair out of my face, but fail so lean my head forward and whip it back. I feel a sudden pain in my neck and I hold the back of my neck 'great'. I say as I slowly get out of bed 'I should never have done that'. I walk out of the bedroom holding the back of my neck and go straight to the bathroom. I open the door slightly and smile when I realise that the bathroom is free.

I brush my teeth, straighten my hair, get dressed and put perfume on. I exit the bathroom once I'm happy with the way that I look. I walk slowly past Tristan and Connor's room incase they are still asleep and silently walk down the stairs. As I get to the bottom of the stairs, I hear someone in the kitchen. I walk up to the kitchen door and peep my head around the door frame. I smile at the cuteness in which I see in front of me. They both look towards me and I slowly move away from the door frame. 'You can come in you know' Anastasia laughs and I walk in 'you 2 are soo cute when you hug you know'. Anastasia blushes and snuggles into Tristan's chest. 'I take it you made up then?' I ask and Tristan nods. 'Boyfriend and girlfriend?' I ask, but Tristan's smile fades a little. 'We've decided that we are just friends' Tristan says and I give him a look of sorrow. 

Connor's POV:

I'm pretty sure everyone is downstairs now. James and Brad have probably gone now, I heard Tristan sniffling a little when he walked past my room and I think Lauren thought she was quiet but I could hear her humming Worth It in the bathroom. I sigh again and sit up. I lay my right wrist on my lap and I slowly roll my sleeves up. Why do they itch so much? I try soo hard not to itch the 4 red lines on my wrist. But I can't stand it anymore. I start to itch them and I get scared when they start to bleed again. I throw myself out of bed and sprint to the bathroom. I slam the door behind me and lock it. I turn on the taps and rub my arm with water constantly, but it won't stop. I start to panic even more. 

I finally turn the tap off and fall against the door and start crying. I can tell that today is not going to be a good day. No Brad, no James, no Tristan, just me and Lauren. Worst of all Joe has asked her to go shopping today. So it looks like I'm gonna be on my own for a little bit.

I look down at my wrist and see that they have finally stopped bleeding, but my skin has gone red due to me constantly rubbing my wrist. I pick the towel off the rack and hold it on my wrist, praying that it won't bleed anymore. 

A knock on the door makes me jump. 'Connor?' they ask, it sounds like Lauren. 'You ok?' she asks and I try and control my breathing. 'I'm ok thanks, just fell over in the bathroom sorry' I lie. I hear here take a breath of relief 'thank god for that, I thought something bad had happened, you haven't broken any bones have you?'. I shake my head, but then realise she can't see me 'no, I haven't don't worry'. 'Ok, I'll meet you downstairs then' she says and I take a breath of relief this time.

I pull the towel away from my wrist and see that there is a little bit of dry blood, other than that it has stopped bleeding. I notice a little bit of blood on the towel too. I shakily climb to my feet and clean the dried blood from my wrist and then pull my sleeves down. I look at the towel, what am I going to do with this now?