It All Started Here (Harry fanfic) *Editing*

Chapter 41

"I'm not sure I can do that, Harry!" I cried out in his chest.

"Sands, calm down!" He whispered, and slowly stroke my back, down my spine. "You have to do this, for yourself."

"I know, but I don't want to leave you!" I sobbed. His grip around me tightened, and his head rested on mine.

"We can go through that." He whispered. "We'll do that!"

"How can you be so sure?" I whispered.

"Because I love you, I won't let you go!" He whispered. "You have to do it! Or else you'll end up dying, or killing yourself! I wouldn't be able to handle that." He mumbled. "Where is the rehab?" He said and turned to the doctor.

"It's just a mile outside London. It's a really good place, I've had people there before." She smiled warmly. "I'll go and call your therapist and talk to her. I'll leave you two alone." She said, and waved. I smiled a little, mouthing thank you, before she left.

Harry wrapped his arms around me again, and stroke my hair slowly. We just sat quiet for a while, I listened to his heartbeats.

If I go, what exactly will happen? Will I get help? Will I get better?

And what will happen to  Harry and me? 

"What are you thinking of?" He murmured in my ear.

"Us..." I answered in quietly. "What will happen if I go there?" I whispered.

"You'll recover!" He mumbled, and pressed a kiss to my forehead.

"But I don't wanna leave you!" I cried. 

"You won't be there forever, Sands. You'll come home sooner or later!" He smiled a little.

"But I'll be there at least a year." I sobbed. "We will only meet twice..." I whispered.

"But if you don't do it, you'll end up die." He whispered with watery eyes. The door opened, and both of our heads snapped in the direction of it. The doctor stood in the door frame, with Mindy behind her.

"Sandy!" Mindy said sadly. I smiled faint.

"Hi." I said with a low voice, looking at the floor. 

"Hi Mindy." Harry spoke up, and rested his head on mine.

"Hi Harry." She smiled a little, before turning serious. "Sandy, have you decided what to do?" She asked me kindly, glancing over at Harry.

"No, no yet..." I shrugged.

"You need to decide fast, so we can get you in there if you want to as soon as possible." She looked down at some papers she held in her hand. "If you want to, we can go to visit there tomorrow." She looked up from them, and smiled.

"Yeah, I think that would be good." I nodded, thinking over it. It can't hurt, can it?

"I'll call them later, and the I'll tell you when we're going!" She looked down at the paper again, and took up her phone. 

"Can I follow?" Harry asked unsure, glancing over at me. Mindy looked at me as well, and I nodded. I need him to follow!

"Yeah, you can." She said, going back to her phone. "I'll call you!" She said to me, and waved, before leaving us. Short trip, someone's busy? The lady followed her out, leaving us alone.

"She don't like me." Harry mumbled, resting his head on mine again.

"She's just probably in a bad mood..." I tried, to lighten him up a bit.

"No, she doesn't like me. She thinks this is my fault..." He  said sadly.

"Harry, it's not your fault!" I said sternly.

"But if I had stayed with you-"

"Harry shut up and listen to me!" I said sternly, and held his cheeks in my hands, to make him look at me. His eyes was watery, and my heart ached from that sight. "It's my fault, not your! You hadn't been able to stop me from getting worse! It's all in my mind! I love you, I love you so much, and it hurts to see that you feel like it's your fault!" I sighed, "It was never you fault! It never was, and never will be either! Just know that, okay?" He nodded to me, and I kissed his lips.

"I love you too, and I'll help you through this!" He whispered, and hugged me tight.

"Thank you for not leaving me alone in this." I whispered, and wiped a tear away.

"I will never leave you int this, I love you too much!" He whispered back, kissing me directly after.

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We walked through the door, and I sighed. Harry squeezed my hand, and hugged me tight.

"Go to sleep, you'll need it." He murmured.

"Can you come too?" He nodded, and kissed my forehead.

"I'll just go and clean in the kitchen, go up and get ready." I nodded, and let go of his hand. I kicked off my shoes, and walked directly upstairs to our bedroom.

I had washed my face on the hospital before we left, because my face was all messed up from the makeup that I shouldn't have done.

I took Harry's big shirt that laid on the bed, and changed to it. I slipped down under the covers, and hugged one of the pillows. My eyes was dry from all the crying, and they were all red and awful.

I heard the door open and close, and how Harry walked around in the bedroom, then to the bathroom. I heard flushing, and that he started the tap. It wasn't long until I was in his embrace, hiding my face in his chest, listening to his heartbeats.

"It will be okay." He promised, and moved a few straps of my hair behind my ear, and kissed me lightly. "You will be okay."

"How can you de so sure?"

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