It All Started Here (Harry fanfic) *Editing*

Chapter 42

As we pulled up to the house, I felt dizzy. I didn't really wanted to be here, but I had no choice! 

I held Harry's hand tight in mine, and he kept looking at me worried. He let go of my hand, and wrapped his arm around my shoulders, bringing me in to his side.

"You okay?" He whispered, looking concerned.

"Yeah..." I nodded. "I'm just nervous." I said truthfully.

"It's nothing to worry about." He whispered, and kissed my forehead.

We followed after Mindy, who led us inside of the house. Inside it was bright, much brighter than I thought! I imagined it more, I don't know, depressing? After all, it's a rehab, for people with eating disorders!

"Hello, welcome to Bluelight!" A man greeted us. I saw how people turned their head towards us, looking at us. The most was girls, it was two or three guys there, and all of them was thin. Sickly thin, like me. Mindy started to talk to the man, and I was almost like attached to Harry. "You have to be Sandy!" He smiled kindly to me, and shook my hand. I smiled weakly, still not liking this all.

"I'm Harry!" Harry spoke up, and shook his hand as well.

"I'm Henry!" He said, and smiled again. I looked over to the other people, who looked at me with almost sympathetic eyes. I smiled, a sad smile. "So, if you all will follow to another room, and I'll answer any question you want!" He waved with his hand, and pointed to a room in the end of the hall.

We entered the room, and Harry sat down on one of the chairs. I was fast to sit down in his lap, and he wrapped his arms around me. It was things like this I would miss, if I go here. Miss being close to him like this, the intimate side of the relationship.

Mindy sat down beside us, looking in our direction. She smiled at me, and looked over at Henry, who sat opposite to us.

"So, what do you want to know about this place?" He smiled.

"How does you help them recover?" Mindy spoke up before we could.

"We help them recover by giving them a safety. Many of the girls, and boys, who come here is mentally unstable, many have been bullied or had problems at home. We help them trust others, we put them in groups and let them get to know each other. For many it's like a gift from god to meet a friend who know what they're going through." He explained. I nodded, and intertwined mine and Harry's hand.

"And about visits..?" Harry asked unsure. I could hear that he was nervous.

"We allow visits twice a year, one longer around Christmas. They also, if we think they are ready, can allow them to go home at Christmas instead that the family is coming here." I felt Harry nod from behind me.

"Do you get your own room?" I asked in a shaky voice.

"Yes, everyone needs their privacy!" He nodded, along with me.

"How many people does it live here right now?" Mindy asked, crossing her legs.

"16, 13 girls and three boys."

"Can they study?" I asked, feeling a bit better in the situation.

"Yes, on distance though, but that's possible!"

"Do you take the phones?" I asked curiously.

"Yes, we do, mostly so they won't get bad messages or see bad comments. Also so they won't see a 'thin insparation' as they call it." Oh well...

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"Was it that bad?" Harry asked. We got home about a hour ago, and we sat in the couch. I had my head on his lap, and he stroke my hair carefully.

"No, actually not." I admitted, and looked up at him.

"Have you decided what to do?"

"No, not yet..." I sighed. "But I gotta do that soon, I know."

"I understand that it's hard, but I will stand by you whatever you choose, love!" He whispered. "I'm involved too you know!" I laughed at his comment, and nodded. "You haven't talked to your brother for a while?"

"Not since we was there..." I said in realisation. "I have to call him!" I sat up fast, and grabbed my phone. "I love you!" I yelled as I ran upstairs.

I fell down on the bed, and looked after his calling icon. I pressed on it, and pressed the phone to my ear.

Signal

Signal

"Hello?"

"Derek!" I said happy, smiling.

"Sandy! Hello!" He said, and said something to someone.

"How are you?"

"I'm good, but the question is how you are? I haven't heard from you in ages!"

"I'm sorry, I've been busy."

"So, how are you?" He asked again, wanting a answer.

"I'm awful actually..." I took a breath before I continued. "I was at the hospital yesterday."

"Why? Are you sick?!" He asked concerned.

"Well, I think we could say so..."

"What happened?"

"I got anorexia, Derek...´And I may go to a rehab in London soon."

"Why just maybe? You need the help, and you know it!" He said sternly through the phone.

"I know, but I don't want to be away from Harry." I sighed, and ran a hand through my hair.

"What did he say about it?"

"He said he would stay by my side whatever I choose. If I go, we'll still try to stay together." I explained fast to him.

"´Then what's the problem?" He asked confused.

"I'm scared..." I admitted. "For what will happen..."

"If you go, you'll get better! People on rehab knows how to help you, and how to get a rid of the depressions."

"I know..." I sighed.

"Hey, I gotta go, but think over it, okay? I love you sis!"

"I will, love you to, Derek!" I smiled, and hung up. I sank back into the bed, and sighed.

Why is this so hard to decide? Why can't it be like buying food? You know what you want, and just get it. You don't stand in the shop for hours to decide what to buy!

Why's life so complicated?

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~Omg, guys! Next chapter is the last! :'( Then I'll do a epilogue after that, and the I'll do a last A/N, thanking you all, and telling what the sequel will be named! It feels so sad! :( I absolutely love how this story turned out, 'cause it's just like this I want it! She was on her way up, but something broke her down again.

I'm so sorry if these last chapters have been crappy, but I've had alot to think of, alot have happened, and I've been really down... ._. I told you earlier, in January actually, that something had happened, and that I would tell you what, so I will.¨I won't say everything, 'cause I don't know who's reading this, and I don't want everyone to find out that! But, my parents are divorcing! I took it really hard, and I've been really sad about it. It's not for attention, but this affects my writing really much, so I think you all should know that! So, these past months have been hard for me, mentally. But my lovely bestie have been here for me through this all, and I love you for that! :)<3

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