TEARS OF PAIN

Chapter 15

Kyria

Laying down feeling depressed as ever could be, today made a month of the loss of my son and its still a hurting feeling! Drowning my self in tears every night of how this shit happened, especially after my miscarriage, Carter's awaken from his coma, and the shooting according at my house. My mom keeps telling me not to stress but how can I not when all of the worst is happening to me, they say never question God but why did i have to go through this shit? Lord knows i can't stop thinking of all this pain & tears i'm going through! Carter and & I have been staying low key for the time being, I brought him to the family house and nobody knows were we are but the exception of our parents & my girl lyric. Carter been kinda of down saying its his fault and maybe if we would have broken up for good none of this probably would of happen but I don't blame him at all I blame myself for being so so weak minded and to be strong and intelligent of enough to just to only focus on what's reality and whats not. 

"Babe" as carter yelled

"What's wrong baby?" I asked

I walked in the room to where he was trying to get the cask of his leg. I thought it was to funny because he was struggling to get it off.

Kyria, so you laughing huh, glad to see you laughing than crying."

"Actually it's funny, if yhu were looking from my point of view, i'm quite show you would have laugh too!"

I gave him a peck on his juicy Carmel lips, which kinda turned me on me on a notch but of course no sex until my six weeks is up! He really haven't   been asking for sex nor have he said anything about it. The old Carter would of been getting on my nerves about it or would of just tried some slick shit. Glad he have changed alot though.

"Carter have you talked to Cassie this morning since you was up before me?"

"Yeah I've talked to my princess, she wants to come with us anf you know how a niigga feel when she is is sad"

"Awh bae but its for the best! I assured him

"I also called my boss, he said I still have my job but when I come back i'm off the routing duty til further notice!"

"Well that's good bae, at least you still got your job though"

"Babe, look its something i've been meaning to tell you, the reason why the shit happened while I was on a route retinue is because, me and vick sell dope on our routes and I'm making all the connects and Vick just handles my business! The fuck up part about it is that niigga getting greedy and wants all the money to himself!"

"Really Carter, bae we are pose to be in this shit together, of course I would of flipped the fuck out but i mean i would of understood because either way the money steady stacking for our family! When i first met you, you were a hustler but you told me that you was hustling and i was straight with that right?"

"Yea babe but when you helped me get this job i made that promise to leave the game for good and i fucked around and got back in it, including boss man!"

"So he knew about all this huh?" Asking with a confused expression

"Yes as long as well gave him a cut" he sharply replied

"Sooooooo" i was interrupted by a text on my from!

Kisha: This kisha i'm texting because i want to speak on Carter's situation is it possible that we cant meet up?

Location,time and any other bodies coming?

No, just me. We can meet at King's Central Ball Park, by the back picnic tables in an hour.