Ashton: soon to be a geadspace of a 3 year old.
Calum:daddy
Luke : dada
Michael papa
Ashtons pov.
I'm ugly. So ugly it hurts. I'm sitting in the bathroom looking at my freshly cut arm. There are marks all down it. Scars. New and old. I'm in a band full of gorgeous people and I'm the ugly one. We are all in a relationship together, but honestly I think I'm only in the relationship because the pity me.
"Ash, babe, c'mon come eat." Michael said through the door.
"I'm not hungry." I'm actually starving. I just don't wanna get fatter than I am.
"O-okay" he said then left. I went on twitter and saw all the hate sent to me. More cuts. Finally there was so much blood it went fuzzy. All i remember was hearing the boys scream.
Lukes pov.
He cut to deep. He cut. Our baby cut. He maybe the oldest but he's our baby. We were waiting for the doctors to come get us for ash. They wouldn't let us see him.
"Ashton Irwin." A man called out.
"Here!"
We all stood up and the nurse walked over to us.
"I have some news. Uh Mr. Irwin is not himself. "
"What do you mean?" Luke aked.
"Um well you see... just follow mean." The nurse stated. So we did and then we got in the room Ash looked the same. But what he said shocked us.
"Daddy, dada, papa?" He asked in a baby voice. We all were shocked.
"Um doc, what's wrong with him."
"He lost so much blood his brain set him back to a 3 year old headspace." The doctor said.
"Uh okay" calum said.
"We actually have meds, for him to gradually become back to himself again but this may cause him memory loss. Depession. Hate himself. And suicidal thoughts. Or you could leave him like this and maybe one day he will become himself on his own."
"No! He will be fine. No meds." Michael said quickley. We all nodded.
After that we went home and I cuddled with Ash while michael ran to toys r us real quick and cal looked for adult-sized cribs and changing tables.
Michael came through the door will like 18 bags. "Did you really need to get him that much." Calum asked.
"Well you know what? He's my 'son' too. So I will spoil him." Michael said.
"Cal lets face it we will all spoil him at one point." I said looking down at the sleeping boy in my arms. My baby.
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