My Dirty Little Secret

Ch. 19 (part A)

After I cleaned up the bed a little bit, I put my panties back on and walked into the living room. I put back on the blouse that was carelessly tossed on the floor and buttoned it half way. I turn to go into the kitchen and sit on the counter next to the stove where Richie was making breakfast.

I just stared at him and blushed a little thinking about what just happened in the bedroom Then smirk right after. I look down and can tell from his grey sweatpants that he still has a slight erection so I giggle a little bit. He just looks back at me and says nothing. Just smiles and pecks me on the lips.

"Where in the world did that come from?!" I blurt out.

He just smiles and bites his lower lip "I have no idea what you're talking about " he says sarcastically. I squint my eyes at him giving the you know damn well what I'm talking about look. "It's just something I always had in me. You were the first female I went that far with though. I never tied and blindfolded someone, just threatened and tied them then had casual sex"

"Why did you decide to do it now? " I dared to ask.

He took a deep breath "Because I knew that if I showed you my true self you wouldn't be scared away. Although I saw how nervous you looked so I eased down a little bit." If that wasn't his true self than holy shit I want to see how far he could really go. "Believe me though, keep testing me and you'll see what I really am capable of. So please do, I want to show you what I really could do to you" he says positioning himself between my legs. "But I would never force you into something you don't want, I swear. But anyways did you like it?" He asked taking my hands and putting them around his neck.

I nod "I loved it! It was scary but in a good way." He smiled "I mean I've done something similar but it wasn't....uh" I couldn't think of a word. "Nerve-wracking, and suspenseful. It was literally Normal sex with my hands tied. No teasing or anything like you did."

He kissed the tip of my nose "Well I'm glad you enjoyed it." He finished breakfast and we sat down and ate it all.

When we finished eating I went to go call Lacy and Aliana to tell them everything that happened. They could tell I was happy and I really am happy. Aliana really wanted all the sex details which I refused to give but other than that they know everything.

Richie went and took a shower while I sat on the couch. His cell phone was sitting on the small table in the middle of the room and it reminded me how this first started. He was sitting right here all frustrated. I grabbed his phone and unlocked it. Luckily there was no pass code and it was on the recent calls page. His last call was to Rebecca. That's probably what frustrated him. He was on the phone for over a half hour with her until about two minutes before I walked in. What's she calling for? She cheated so they're done. Right? Then all of a sudden his phone alerted him of a text from her. I looked at his phone feeling bad for going through it but I just had to know. I was about to open the text then I hear Richie calling me from the bedroom to bring him his phone.

I stood up and and walked into the bedroom with his phone and brought it into the bedroom. He was only in a towel that hung loosly around his waist. I stood at the door just staring at him. He creeped towards me and kissed me. It was long and slow. A cute gesture. I swear I could kiss him all damn day.

I gave him his phone and he put it on the bedside table without looking at the text. I walked toward him and he sat on the bed pulling me on his lap.

"So what sould we do today?" He asked.

I pecked his lips. "Can't we just do this all day long?"

"We have plenty of time for that in our future baby." I blushed a little thinking about our future. Getting married, having babies, growing old together. It's weird thing to think about but still puts a smile on my face."So to answer your question, no we cannot do that all day!"

I sighed "Fine" I debated asking him about his phone call earlier. Would he truthfully give me an answer? Is it even worth it to ask?

Based on the look on Richie's face I've been quiet for too long. "You good Lena?" He asks. I nod my head silently. "No you're not."

I roll my eyes and decide to ask him about earlier. "You were on the phone this morning, you looked really stressed out" he sighed knowing exactly what I was talking about "I was just thinking about who you were on the phone with that made you so stressed out"

He removed me off him and continued getting dressed "You honestly don't want to get involved in it okay. It was Rebecca calling me about our situation...."

I interrupted " Why would you think I would not want to get involved for Richie?" I said abruptly " Richie I love you and we're apart of each others lives now. I think I have the right to know why Rebecca's call got you all triggered like that." He walked away into the living room with only his dark blue jeans on "don't avoid the subject babe" I said getting up and following him.

He sat down on the corner of the couch and I sat down at the other end from him. "I am not avoiding the subject. It's just hard for me to talk about...." there was a long pause of complete silence. It made me a little nervous for a reason I'm not all that aware of "...I love you okay. So please don't think I don't want to talk about it because I do. I'm just still having a hard time processing what's going on right now. Not knowing if I'm going to be a dad or not" he said shaking his head "knowing that I'm possibly putting you in such an awkward position and don't say I'm not because I know I am and it's all just so confusing " he continued sounding frustrated.

In a way he is correct. All this baby daddy and cheating scandal does put me in an awkward situation here because what am I suppose to do when the baby arrives? I'm technically the past mistress now girlfriend. How will people look at me and especially the baby? Sometimes it's not just love that matters it's those small things too. So I see where Richie is coming from but I hate how he's thinking like this.

At this moment I don't know how to respond to him so I get up and stand in front of him in between his legs and I hug him. His head in my chest and I slowly feel his hands wrap around my back tightly. Softly kissing the top of his head. Hopefully comforting him like this will bring him some sort of peace that I'm here for him no matter what.

"I love you Richie" I softly whisper "No matter what awkward position I'm in or wherever we are in life just know I'll be there through it all. I love you"

"Thank you Lena" he said beginning to let go of me and looked up at me "You mean the world to me right now and doing this to you pains me but baby I promise I'll make it up to..."

I kissed him before he could finish his sentence. His lips were soft and addicting as usual. I softly bit his bottom lip while slowly pulling away hearing him groan. I looked deeply into his eyes "Shut up. You will owe me nothing for this. I'm choosing to go through this with you"  I said giggling a little bit.

"Did I tell you that I love you?" He asked with a slight smile on his face.

"Oh trust me. I know!" I said laughing then falling on his lap and kissed him some more.

I'm so happy he told me about who was on the phone with him and opened up a little bit. I didn't know that he was feeling like that. But at least now I know and can probably manage this situation somewhat better. I'm absolutely ready for the roller coaster ride with him.  Hopefully, and it seems like he is, he's ready for it too because I have a feeling it's going to be a wild ride.

THIS IS ONLY PART 1!!! I WILL BE WRITING A SECOND PART THEN COMBINING THEM LATER!