I fluttered my eyes and glanced around the room, my mom was standing there with someone talking.
I turned my head to look around, this wasn't my bathroom.
My mom turned her head to see me, and looked again. She ran over and squeezed me tight until I felt dizzy again. I wasn't exactly sure where I was.
"Honey! Sweetie! Are you okay?" She backed away to give me space, with tears in her eyes.
"I-I-don't-"
"Why would you do this? How come you couldn't come to me and talk about your problems? You scared the hell out of me Miranda! I don't know what I would do if I lost you too." My mom cut me off, trying to stay strong for me. But I knew she wanted to break down and cry.
My mind started to go back to the last time I was home. My phone being chucked on the window, and the razor blade scraping my skin off. When I imagined that I felt uneasy and held my wound on my wrist. I glanced over at them, my wrist was filled with cuts up and down. My body in a hospital bed with a lot of machines hooked up to me. I could hear my heartbeat on the machine. And I'm glad it's still beating, but half of me wished my mom hasn't found me in the bathroom. I started crying, the thought of my mom losing me. Even though I don't know why anyone would never want to lose me.
"I- I'm- so sorry." I stuttered choking on my own words. I can't think straight right now.
"Never, ever do this again!" She held me tight, making me feel loved.
Suddenly I heard a knock, which made me flinch. I seem to be really afraid of everything and I flinch even when somebody walks by outside the room.
My mom opened the door and a tall familiar person came inside with a woman. I was still very dazed and couldn't quite think straight. I stared at them, thinking who they were.
"Justin? Pattie?" I asked, blankly staring at them pretty confused.
"Honey, why would you do this?" Pattie asked, hugging me and quickly kissing my cheek.
"I- don't know." I lied.
"Do you think I could be alone with Miranda?" Justin asked my mom and Pattie, which they both quietly left not to make me flinch or scare me as I'm easily startled at this moment
When the door closed Justin sat in the chair beside my bed. His eyes were tearing up, he then started to cry. His fingers slid through his hair, and I just watched.
"Why." Justin finally said something after crying.
"You don't understand." I turned my head to my bed sheets, so I wouldn't have to see him crying and disappointed in me.
"You could of told me what was wrong with you! I told you something that I don't like telling people, or talking about. I only told you because I trust you. You're different Miranda, you light up the room with your smile. I try and get you to smile as much as I can because when you do, it makes me 110% happier as well." Justin grabbed my hand, holding it tight. I felt so horrible for making him feel this way, I felt a tear drop on my sheet fall.
"You don't know how fucked up my life is Justin. I get bullied, my father was an alcoholic which led him to his death in prison, I have no friends because everyone hates me. Oh yeah, and I'm ugly, disgusting." My tears started streaming down my face, it hurt to cry. I was tired of crying.
Justin looked me in the eyes and grabbed my wrist. He gently rubbed my cuts, and kissed them gently.
"You're the most beautiful girl I've ever met."
My whole body went numb. Nobody has ever said that to me, ever. I started balling to the point where I had to catch my breath. Justin looked at me, so worried. He looked at my lips again.
"I'm not beautiful, because if I was beautiful and loved by many, I wouldn't be in this hospit-"
My sentence was cut off by Justin grabbing my face and planting his lips on mine. He passionately kissed me, and then took them off to stare into my teared eyes.
He wiped the tears off. "Maybe I haven't known you for years, but the second I met you I fell in love with you. And I would do anything for you Miranda."
The heartbeat machine went faster, and Justin smiled at that, knowing he made my heart skip a beat.
Honestly, that moment right there, felt like the happiest moment in my life, that someone actually loves me for once like that. His lips felt perfect on mine, like a puzzle piece. And he wasn't hard, he was gentle to make me feel like I'm safe around him. And I do feel safe with him.
I closed my eyes once more and a tear fell down my cheek which Justin rubbed my tear away.
I slightly smiled, and put my forehead on Justin's. "I, love you too." My heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest, I've never felt like this.
Justin put my dark hair behind my ear and rubbed my leg. He then put his lips on mine again. This time it was more intimate, like he had been waiting to do this with me forever. That moment I felt like my life was perfect. Like if I died that moment, I would be happy.
I never thought I would fall in love this summer.
Our kiss was interrupted by the doctor slowly opening the door. We both quickly looked over.
"Sorry to bother you, but I need to speak to Miranda, if that's okay?" The doctor held his clip board.
Justin took my hand and kissed it. "I'll be right back." My face turned into a smile, a real smile. Something I haven't done in years, I just can't believe someone actually feels this way about me.
"So, Miranda. I will be putting you on severe depression pills, take two, once a day." I nodded and the doctor put the pills on the table by the window on the left.
"Do I have to stay a night?" I asked, rubbing my wrist lightly.
"Yes, just to make sure everything is okay with your veins." The doctor wrote something on his clipboard and left. Soon after Justin, Pattie and my mom came in.
My heart beat faster seeing Justin come in, taking the seat beside my bed from before.
Everyone was acting like I was so fragile, as if I was an egg, that could break if you handled it too roughly. Justin took my hand and held it tight but gentle. My mom and Pattie glanced at our hands which I felt my cheeks heat up. My mom smiled at me as if she was happy, after I smiled at Justin. I think she was legitimately happy after I smiled, because I'm happy. I think I'll be more happy once I get out of this hospital.
After about 20 minutes Pattie and my mom said it was getting late, so they said their goodbyes to me and my mom kissed my forehead telling me she loves me. Justin refused to leave me, and wanted to stay until visiting hours were over.
We talked for a while, and we eventually went to the cafeteria and Justin bought me a late dinner. After I refused to eat, he bought if for me anyways, telling me I had to eat. It made me feel like he really does care about me.
Justin then carried me to the hospital room, because I was really tired from my medication. He put me in bed and kissed my lips one last time before the nurse told him he had to leave, I held his hand and slowly let it go.
The lights turned off and I was in silence. I couldn't believe what all happened to me today, from waking up in my house thinking nobody loved me that way, to going to sleep in a hospital knowing Justin cares about me and I made more than just a friend this summer.
But my scars will still remain.
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OMG AWH! They're finally together! I think it was cute when he kissed her scars and told her shes beautiful, even if she's not perfect.
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Nothing Like Us (Justin Bieber Fan Fiction)
Fanfiction15 year old Miranda Wells never really had any friends in Alberta, or a boyfriend. Her mother was depressed all the time, and her father was an alcoholic. When Miranda's father dies, her mother and her move out to Stratford to start fresh. Miranda h...