New Orleans: City Raining {August Alsina Urban} (EDITING)

14.

New Orleans: City Raining

|Letters To The Dead |

Anthony Clayton

Days like this just never get easier. I sat on the edge of my bed look at a picture of Melvin and I when I was around 17. Damn time really does fly by after someone dies. Everyday I write a letter or two to Melvin. It's helps some what with the pain but it's just still so surreal that he isn't here anymore.

I grabbed my notebook off the night stand beside my bed and turned to the back of the book and grabbed the letter I wrote to Melvin just days after he was killed. I unfolded the paper and read the letter over to myself.

Dear, Melvin

I can't believe your really gone big brutha. We've been through so much together. I don't know how I'm going to survive without you being here. You where like the father I never had. You thought me how to be the man I am today and to provide for the family. Mel man I need you. I can't do this only. I've only ever had you and Lyric in my corner and now your gone. Momma hasn't spoken to anyone since she received the news about to dying. Maw-Maw is what's holding everyone together. Well except me my thoughts are getting to me man. I feel like your death is my fault. I can't take the guilt it's eating at my heart and mind even if your death isn't my fault I feel like it is. I should have been there that day maybe you would still be alive again. I truly feel lyrics pain now and how she blame herself for Romans death. This shit is hard Melly B. I feel like I should just end it all now that way these thoughts can go away.

Love, Ya Baby Brutha Yung Ant.

I folded the letter back up and placed it back inside the notebook. I closed the notebook and placed it back on the night stand and stood up. I brushed my hands down my pants and walked out of my bedroom. Lyric was standing by the steps like looking at the floor. That something she did when ever she had a lot of stuff on her mind.

I walked towards her and just pulled her into a tight hug. No matter what was going on in my life I always worried more about Lyric that anything else. With all the shit going on with her family and shit I'm surprised she hasn't snapped and hurt someone. I gently at stroked her hair and rubbed circle on her back.

"Lyr?"

"Yes ant?"

"I know you have a lot going on and I want to help you release some of your emotions."

"Okay Ant what do you have in mind?"

"I was think maybe you could just write a letter to Roman. When ever I have a lot going on or when ever Mel is heavy on my mind I read this letter I wrote just a few days after he was killed. I have a notebook called "Letters To The Dead." It's my way of venting to Melly B without the feedback from him."

"Okay Ant I'll do it after you go grab me and you something from Panda Express I've been craving their vegetable shrimp fried rice with Bourbon Chicken."

"Alright I'll be back Lyr."

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Lyric Robinson

I sat in the living room watching Martin while I waited for Anthony to come back. I played in my hair. Which reminds me I need to go tithe beauty salon and get Anthony sister in law Chandra to change my hair color. Half way through the 5th episode of Martin the front door opened. Anthony walked in with the food in one hand and his 6?year old niece Kayden holding onto his other hand.

"Kay-Kay let go of my hand and go sit the living room with Aunt Lyric while I remove the food from the bags" Anthony said

Moments later the sound of Kayden's tiny feet filled my ears. Kay-Kay smiled at me and sat on my lap. I lightly laughed to myself an ran my finger through her blown out hair.

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After eating my food and putting Kay Kay down for a nap I decided it was time to write this letter.

Dear, Roman

Hey Rome I know I haven't talked to you in a while but shit I crazy man. Momma told me you had a twin brother and all this other crazy shit. Roman it feels like when ever things in my life are finally going good something it someone always fucks it up. Sometimes I feel like your not dead. But that I remember I was right beside you when you went flat line. I just can't shake this feeling I get. Like someone is watching me. Rome I really wish you where alive I need you. Everything is just falling apart in front of me and honestly if it wasn't for my faith in The Lord and Anthony by my side I don't think I would be here today. I just wish I could talk to you one last time and heard the sweet sound of your masculine voice, or to be able to look into you grey eyes and tell you that your the best big brother anyone could ask for. Roman I need you..... I can't do this shit without you. I love you Roman but sometime I just wish i was with you and not on earth dealing with the world and it's problems in life.

Love, Ya Baby Sista Lyr

P.S daddy had another kid her name is Lauren and she beautiful I wish you could see her Rest Up Big Brutha

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WELL I am back for those who didn't read my Author note.
This is just one of the few chapters I have in store for y'all today. I legit typed this who chapter in 1 hour and a half because I was on snapchat 😂.

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