New Orleans: City Raining {August Alsina Urban} (EDITING)

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New Orleans: City Raining

|Song Cry 🌹💧|

After The Funeral

Anthony Clayton

I sat on edge of my bed with a bottle of vodka in one had and a blunt in the other. It's only been 4 hours since the funeral and I haven't left my room since Lyric and I came back home. I know she worried sick about me but I honestly just really need to be alone.

It feels like no matter how hard I prayed for god to save my Maw-Maw it didn't happen. I placed the half empty bottle of vodka to my lips and chugged it down. The burning sensation felt like it wasn't even there. I know it's sad to say but I think I'm starting to really get okay with death.

I threw the half empty bottle at the wall and watched it break into a million tiny pieces. The broken bottle is how my heart feels. Moments later Lyric knocked on my bedroom door.

"Lyr go away I just wanna be alone." I mumbled

"No Anthony I will not go away open this door now." She said

I sighed heavy as I pulled myself off the bed and unlocked the door for Lyric

Lyric walked slowly walked into the room looking at the broken glass before carefully stepping over it and making her way towards me. My eyes where glued to her watching her every move as tears continued to fall freely. Lyric sat beside me and pulled me into a tight hug.

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Lyric Robinson

I pulled Anthony into a tight hug not bothering to say another. There are no words to describe the pain he feels. Maw-Maw Peyton was the glue that held the Clayton family together for so long, even after Melvin's death. I rubbed tiny circles on Ant's back as he cried.

Seeing Anthony like this really hurts my heart to the core. This isn't the Anthony I'm used to seeing. He's always so joyful and happy even after losing Mel he was broken but not like this. He looks physically and emotionally drained.

I climbed into the bed pulling Anthony with me. His grip around my waist was extremely right but I could honestly careless at this point. My Bestfriend needs me more than anything right now and I refuse to leave him alone. I led with Anthony until he feel alseep.

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Anthony Clayton

I woke up in Lyric's arms. It's only been 7 hours since I've said my final goodbye to my Maw-Maw. I gently lifted Lyrics arm up and slid out of bed. I grabbed my notebook of the night stand and opened it up to a fresh blank page. I grabbed the pencil and began to write the lyrics that flowers around in my head.

Song Cry

Sometimes I get emotional
And I can't seem to find the way I'm s'posed to go
And all these so-called people that I'm s'posed to know
They be the main ones
Smile up in your face, but behind your back they hate
So I hope you know
You're like the only reason I'm emotional
My tears fall like water so that I can grow
Not like I was before
Tryna make a change, I need something more

I can't hold back these tears
Let me cry
They say a man ain't supposed to cry

So I'ma let the song cry
I'ma let my soul cry through these words
I need to try to free my mind
Sometimes I need to cry just to ease my hurt
But when I let the song cry
Hope you don't think I still won't ride for mine
Every rose needs the rain sometimes
But know that you can dry your eyes this time
Let the song cry

What am I supposed to do?
Hold it all together when I think of you?
In my heart I'm thinking you were gone too soon
May you rest in peace, yet I can't sleep
It's my point of view
Got me in a state of mind, I'm so confused
Crying raindrops so that I can bloom
So what am I to do?

I can't hold back these tears
Let me cry
They say a man ain't supposed to cry

So I'ma let the song cry
I'ma let my soul cry through these words
I need to try to free my mind
Sometimes I need to cry just to ease my hurt
But when I let the song cry
Hope you don't think I still won't ride for mine
Every rose needs the rain sometimes
But know that you can dry your eyes this time
Let the song cry

Let it breathe
Let it breathe
Let it breathe
Let's get it

I may be cryin' now but I'll be laughin' later
No way, wouldn't be easy when you're tryna be the greatest
That ever did it or does it
Ain't no fuckin' time for later
And I know they think I'm sporadic
The bastard child of an addict
But I'm way too calculated
I try to love, but I never knew her
This money, I'm blowin' through it
Ain't rockin' red or blue, I'm unafilliated
Cause my bloods and my cousins hate me
I try to buy my mama's love, no she don't appreciate it
So I stay inebriated
I figured maybe J. Cole or Drizzy Drake
Would drop a verse and tell the people how we hurtin'
Guess I was mistaken
This moment mine for the taking
For all them nights I thought of suicide, contemplating

I can't hold back these tears
Let me cry
They say a man ain't supposed to cry

So I'ma let the song cry
I'ma let my soul cry through these words
I need to try to free my mind
Sometimes I need to cry just to ease my hurt
But when I let the song cry
Hope you don't think I still won't ride for mine
Every rose needs the rain sometimes
But know that you can dry your eyes this time
Let the song cry

After writing the song I closed my notebook and turned the lamp off. I climbed back in bed with Lyric and rested my head on her chest. Some how I found myself crying yet agin. This is truly going to take a while to adjust to. Life is going to be so weird with out Melvin & Maw-Maw Peyton.

Before closing my eyes and drifting off the sleep I decided to talk to my maw-maw real quick

"Maw-Maw please watch over me and the family as we deal with you no longer being here with us. Maw-Maw this shit is going to take a long time to get used to. But can you tell my Brutha I love and miss him and both y'all save me a seat there. I will see y'all again at the pearly white gates of heaven."

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Not the chapter I excepted 😕

It's something thou

Sorry I tried adding song cry in the media but wattpad would let me 😑

#SouthernSunday ❤️