Internal Conflict.

Chapter 12

Mum gave Chace a small box, to my eyes it looks like engagement ring, Chace took the box and his joke matches my imagination.

"oh, Alexandra, Baby are you proposing to me?" Chace chuckled and looked at mum then at the box, he removed to top and his jaw dropped, eyes widening, head snapping toward mum

"WHAT! YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!!"

mum just laughed and stood up on her feet

I think mum brought Chace a condom. 

but then, its not. when he showed us the present, my jaw joined Chace's to the floor and I gasp, honestly, sucked the whole oxygen from the room, shocked, I took a place beside Chace standing on the floor

it wasn't a condom, a key.

key.

BMW key.

mum brought Chace a car for Christmas.

a car

for chace

I'm her daughter.

they hugged each other and I suddenly felt like crying, watching Chace laughing a genuine one, his eyes shining and lightening up the whole room like the Christmas tree.

that's the Chace I know.

I'm jealous yeah. but again, genuinely happy for Chace, we all made our way to the garage and saw his car. his brand new silver BMW 2011

standing outside wearing pajamas and fluffy socks, watching Chace and his hysterical jumping season around his car, I saw Niall and another boy, the one with big lips standing outside talking or whatever, my eyes met Niall's and I felt the shiver going down my spine, I kept looking at the man, I can see the frown on his face, the hurt in his eyes, and I made sure to make him see the coldness in my eyes, even from afar, our eyes pour into each other's but what broke this all, Chace.

"helloo? are you there?" Chace move his hand in front of my eyes and I look at him breathing out, "I'm sorry,what?"

"i was asking if you wanna go in a ride with me."

I cant fool Chace.

"i think I... dude, don't ruin it its brand new."

but then, I cant fool Chace, he looked behind him then at me "oh, you're right." with a chuckle I nod at him thanking him 

"it cold I'm going inside." I made my way to the door and Anne was there, simply , I walked past her

"Maria, wait." 

ignore.

"Maria." she gripped my forearm and pushed me to her, spinning around dramatically and yanking her hand away I kept the frown deep on my face.

"you cant be seriously mad at me." she crossed her arms and my jaw fell to the floor

"excuse me? I cant be mad at you?" I glared at her

"you don't even have the right to."

I laughed, surprising both of us, I expected a fight, I can tell that Anne expected that as well, but I just laughed and suddenly stopped. giving Anne the most serious, most dangerous face I can make.

"listen to me, last night was ruined and you have a big role in ruining it, this Christmas is suined, so don't ruin it much more now by arguing with me, alright? for mum's sake."

I finished my speech and made my way to my room

for surprise, Anne did not follow me, and that's just good because right now I wanna be alone.

I look at my wrist, exactly at the bracelet with  three hearts on it, that was a gift from Niall on my sweet sixteen. I'm wearing it since then and I don't seem to have the guts to take it off, every time I try, somethings stops me.

I pushed my hair behind my ear and grabbed the old photos album, I stare at it, I know deep inside that opening it is not a great idea

don't open it.

don't open it.

I open the first page and smile at the picture of Chace and I, the one he had it drown for me, flipping over the pages I heard the door knocking.

Chace.

without hiding my smile I let him in "come in."

"Hi."

Not Chace.

Not fucking Chace.

I look up to find the bright blue eyes, white pale skin, pink lips and blond hair styled neatly , those  thin  lips smiling at me like there was no wars in the world.