Its 7;30pm and I'm sitting on a bench in a random garden, all alone, all upset
Earlier Chace offered to take me out for a ride with his brand new car and I ofcourse wouldn't say no even if I wasn't in the mood.
I took it a rule and let it rule my whole life; never let a male ruin your day.
Work your backside off to make all the sadness vanish, go out with a friend, talk to your grandmother and let her tell you all the drama that had happened in her youth life, but never let a male cause you pain and ruin your day.
It helped a lot to be honest, I went out with Chace, ate some popcorn and all, and it buried the pain in my soul down and covered it, but the cover was shallow
The joy was shallow compared to the pain inside of my soul.
Chace met an old friend and they decided to go out but I wouldn't love to join them, because I'm nothing but stupid.
And here I am, sitting on a bench my nose turning crimson red because of the coldness, here I am breaking every strict rule I made for these kind of situation, but things when they happen just so different, you know ? Like you keep kicking your own ass saying don't break
Don't let the pain control over you
Let the joy control
You will face him someday but you won't let him hurt you
It's all bullshit, 1word and 2 touches and he destroyed every thing.
Fucking Niall Horan.
Being the stupid I am, I laughed "it's so hilarious how long I spent building walls up and preparing myself for this time , but I never realized it was this close, never realized I will have to face this alone. It's just so stupid"
I told the tree in front of me which is away from me nearly by 4 foot pretending it is my dad.
Imagination, it's what keeps me alive.
"Can you tell me where are you right now?" I asked my dad, but in reality it is the tree.
Laugh.
"Why did you even leave? To save the country? God okay you only lie to us dad can't you say that u found some other good family for yourself and you left for them? Can't you tell the truth?" I covered my nose with my hand due to the freezing weather.
Laughing turned to crying, I felt hot tears run down my cheeks
Don't let that faggot ruin your life over again, he's not even worth it.
I felt my father's voice in my head telling me and I sniffed, shifting on my place and ducking one hand under my thigh looking for warmth and the other hand I used it to wipe my cheeks "you're right." I told the tree aka-my dad.
I ducked my other hand under my thigh and looked down breathing out through my mouth, watching the white smoke leaving my lips.
I actually used to blow out in the air in nights like this pretending to be smoking.
"You okay?" I genuinely thought the tree was talking to me. But it was the guy with big lips. Known as Liam.
"Yeah." I replied simply looking up at him dressed in black and his hands on his coat's jackets
He comfortably took a seat beside me without asking for my permission.
What is it with those guys doing whatever they want without others permission, does he think because he is famous he can do whatever he wants, NO, NO AND FUCKING NO.
I grew furious at the idea and decided to push him off the seat and let him fall on the hard cold ground but then he looked at me, smiled.
I may be a bitch, but I ain't frowning at someone who is smiling at me.
But I didn't smile, I let out a breath and watch the white smoke.
"Is it Niall?" He spoke
Seriously?
"Maybe yes and maybe no." I gave him a blank answer, proud of myself and he eyed me
"So, did you listen to any of our songs?"
Here he is changing the subject.
"Nah, not a fan." I shrugged
"Really you should try to listen to one, they contain so much wisdom and meaningful thoughts."
I almost rolled my eyes.
"Well, big lips, no one call his own work shitty." I shot and crossed my legs placing my hands on my lap.
I mentally smiled at myself for being the smart ass I am right now, leaving good first impression is always wanted.
He laughed bitterly "big lips? Really? Are my lips that big?"
He moved his fingertips on his lips and I looked at him, this man is nice, really.
I shrugged and nodded my head.
He seems cool with it when he should be offended.
"Let me tell you something, the whole staff knows that there is someone in Niall's head, the whole world knows it but no one knows who is that person, if it's a friend, a girlfriend or even a relative, you know ? And no one ever question it because every time we try to, we end up fighting, also in every song we wrote, he just snap saying a sentence or anything and insist on adding it to the song, and I was thinking, since you were with him since childhood, maybe you'd recognize these sentences and know why they mean a lot to Niall and stuff." He finished with a breath and I licked my parted lips, blink
He's so fucking fast, his tongue moves as fast as a fly's wing!
"Do you always talk this fast?!"
"Kind of."
I've grow curious, I wanna know the quotes , wanna know the person, is it a he or she , do I really know the person? Do I know who's he talking about? I decided to find out once I get the opportunity to.
what made me get up was the sudden burst of the sky, so suddenly it started snowing heavily.
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Internal Conflict.
FanfictionI wrapped my arms around his neck, staring at his eyes as my heart squeezed itself his arms were around my waist swaying in a rhythm with the beat he has asked for this dance, but we were silent, eyes were screaming but tongues were tied. he gave me...
