Internal Conflict.

chapter 2

I woke up next morning to find myself completely alone in the room, I stretch my neck and breath out , I made my way out to the bathroom and took a quick shower, after that, I put on random outfit skinny black jeans. White striped shirt with blue jean jacket that is absolutely amazingly warm(the picture is up there)
And it hits me, I'm going home today!!

I remembered that the professor needs a report about our homes and childhoods
Home, yes. Childhood, No
I adjusted hair and put it into a low bun, I put the stuff that I would need on my purse and made my way out while dialing up Chace's number

"Hello" he said through the phone
"Chace I'm ready! Where do I meet u?"
I forgot to mention that Chace is going home with me as well, yay
" the parking lot, we will take a cap to the bus station" he said and I hear him move in the background
" alright I will meet you " I said and hung up the phone
I made my way to the cafeteria and stood on he line
I'm hungry, Chace and home can wait.

"One chocolate donut with American coffee , please" I said to the blond guy when it is my turn, he gave me a small nod before vanishing to make my coffee , I watch as he place carefully the donut on the napkin not to ruin the cream on top of it , and I smelled the freshly made coffee and my stomach growls, I'm getting hungrier by the time
Minutes later blond gave me my order with a slight smile that reflect his bored mood and how he feels toward his work, it became his job actually , just to smile and feed the hungry mouths.

I walked toward the parking lot which is super far away from the cafeteria I will mostly get hungry again when I reach there.

Couple minutes later I reached the parking lot and I explored the place for Chace , when I finally found him I smiled and walked toward him and I saw him looking at his phone focused
I took one more step to him and smiled widely willing to startle him "BOO!!"
He looked at me and glared, I simply laughed and took a sip of my coffee " you must be scared by now "

"Whatever, let's move " he started to walk and I followed him while eating my small tiny meal
"Somebody is in a bad mood today?"
"No I just hate waiting and you know that " he looked at me and his face is deadly serious

"Hey chill it's not a big of a deal, you're still alive" I shrug and finished my meal after a short while and he sigh.

We found a cap and he drove us to the bus station, non of us having a suitcase because we are going home which mean everything we need is there, I personally just brought the so necessary things in my purse, such as my make up purse, my sunglasses and my wallet
And Chace just brought his laptop bag and I know he have everything he needs with the laptop , we hopped in the bus and minutes later it moved, I placed my head on the window silently as Chace seated himself beside me , I suddenly felt my stomach hurt, the more I think about home and what happened that time makes me anxious, it's not the first time i go home nor the last, but the memories are hard to vanish.

we both kept silent as the bus moves, non of us having the desire to talk, both thinking of the things might happen when we reach there because we both had such a horrible time that year at home, we are both afraid to meet the same people, and what if the same memories started to play for real?

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By the sunset we arrived Bradford and the cap dropped us right in front of my house, my childhood house, I am there standing with Chace , my childhood friend looking at my childhood house, staring at the windows and the door.
I see one piece of the buzzle missing, Mom's car

She has definitely bought a new car because I can see a blue Peugeot parked in our driveway.
I carry my feet and walked to the front door with Chace right behind me, I took a glance at the black Mercedes and I knew Jess is there, and the 'what if's ' wave started through my mind
What if Abbie is there
What if Niall is there?
What if they are still the same as I left them ?

I took deep breath to keep my calm and hold the door knob, before opening it I heard Chace calling my name "Maria."

I turned to him and he visually gulped" I think I will follow you later."
I looked at him for a while and I can notice the emotions on his eyes, sadness mixed with the anxiety
I sigh and turned around fully to be facing him, I threw my arms around his neck embracing him warmly and he immediately hugged me back
"Be okay, for me, Chace."
I feel him gulp and sigh "Okay." He whispered against my shoulder and after a while we broke the hug, I kissed his cheek and watched as he leave with his hands shoved in his pockets and the bag is on his shoulder

I sigh and turned around and turned the knob pushing the door as I step in, the smell of my home made me smile without noticing and when I walked in the living room, for the first minute I thought I got in the wrong house.

I'm face to face with Middle Age woman looks like she's in her 30's with brown hair and eyes and beside her seated a little girl with BIG blue eyes staring at me and black hair , they doesn't look much alike but I can tell they are a mother and a daughter , I don't know what to say.

I'm the worst at situations like this.
"MARIA!!" My momma's voice broke the silent in the room and turned around to face the gorgeous blonde lady , standing at the kitchen's door
I dropped the bag off my shoulder "mum."
I rush to her throwing my body into her arms as she hugs me tighter than ever, I closed my eyes smelling her , holding her, I didn't realize I missed her that much until now
"Mummy I missed you." I whispered and after a long minute she pulled away from me only to wipe my tears that apparently draw stains on her white shirt.

Oh she's crying too.
"I missed you much more darling, I'm happy you're here again." She cracked a smile, a bright smile though that would light up the whole house.

"Ooh crap look who decided to give us a visit!!" I heard male's voice, Jess.

I pulled away from my mum only to run toward my sister's fiancé, I jumped on him and hugged him tight while we both laughed alittle and shared the "I missed you"

"Oh I will not forget that, Maria, you little brat get your hands off my baby !" Using her playful tone, Anne yelled at me and smiled widely while pulling back from Jess and walking to her "oh Anne I missed you as well"
I grabbed her shoulder and pulled her into a hug.
Through our hugging season, an extremely beautiful girl walked down the stairs, long black hair . Light brown eyes and just a beautiful face

I pulled back and looked at her and we are both as confused as each other
And my mum, my hero came in and broke the awkward silence.

"Oh Maria I forgot, this is Trisha Malik, and this is Safaa and waliyha Malik, her daughters" she said while introducing them to me " and this is Maria, my daughter " she smiled at Trisha and we shook hands sharing the "pleasure to meet you" and "pleasure is all mine".