Warrior

Chapter 7: Back Out

I had gotten out of the shower and got dressed, drying my hair and putting a beanie on, not even bothering to fuck with my hair. I left the bathroom and made my way back out the door. I was gonna go out for a drink. Get my mind off things. I couldn't believe Tommy was in Pittsburgh. Didn't even bother to see me, call me, or anything all these years. Now he's back and he still didn't come see me. Pop told me and Brendan about Ma passing but none of us found out what happened.

I got in my car and starting driving to one of my favorite bars. I was good friends with the bar tenders that work there. I drove and parked the car. I thought about Joe. I wondered when he was comming back and I'd hope it would be a while from now. I'm afraid I won't get away from him before he gets back in town.

I got out of my car and headed to the bar. It smelled heavily of liquor and sweat.  I sat at the bar and ordered my shots drinking then immediately. I'm so anger at him for leaving me there. I needed him, I needed my big brothers. I clenched my fists and drank the alcohol that I had ordered. I left Naomi there. I was already drunk, I couldn't drive 2 hours drunk. I finished my last drink and stumbled outside. I walked over to my car and got in. I started to feel terrible for leaving Naomi there. I grabbed my phone and called her number. "Naomi? Naomi I'm sorry, I'm gonna come get you, okay? I'm sorry" I say slurring my words. "Jade are you drunk?" She asked calmly. "Well, no, yeah, kinda." I reply. I can't think straight. "Jade go home. I'm at pops house, you can come pick me up tomorrow." She spoke softly, hanging up the phone before I could say anything.

I started the car and slowly drove back to Brendan's. I made it to the house safely and popped a few pills in my mouth before entering the house. I tripped on my own feet and fell on the ground. "Fucking hell!" I whispered to myself before getting up. I heard someone comming down stairs "Jade?" I heard Brendan's voice whisper as he came up to me. "Yo, Brendan!" I raised my voice plopping myself on the couch. I felt angry again. I thought about that day tommy left. I thought about all the times Joe hurt me. I felt alone again. I felt the tears fall. "Jade what's going on with you? What happened?" Brendan asked, wrapping his arms around me. I didn't say anything. I just cried, I held my knees to my chest and let the tears fall. "Shhh, you're not alone okay? I'm here" Brendan said, holding me, trying to comfort me. The pills started to kick in and soon enough, I was passed out.