Life Support {ManxBoy} | Original Write Up

Chapter 13

Chapter Thirteen

"I don't want to talk about this right now Vance." Cyro whined his voice catching in his throat as Vance wrapped his arms around him, kiss his cheek gently. "Really just don't make me okay."

"Okay." He could feel Cyro relaxing in his hold at his reply. Vance wanted to keep talking about it, they both knew he did but he knew that more than that if he pushed the subject Cyro would walk away. It felt like they had been on such thin ice recently, their relationship right on the verge of falling through. Their relationship had never been all that stable to begin with, they'd both realized that a long time ago. There was too much they didn't know about one another or didn't want to know about one another.

"Vance?" Cyro's voice shaking slightly as he tilted his head up slightly. He kissed Vance carefully testing to see if he would really give him what he wanted.

"Cy, you know how I feel about this." Vance growled fighting to get away from Cyro as he felt Cyro tangling himself against him, his lips moving down the side of his jaw as his arms wrapped around his neck.

"Just go with it, for me Vance, I need this." Cyro begged standing from his seat grabbing onto Vance's shirt. It wasn't that Cyro didn't know that using sex to get over his feeling wasn't healthy, it was that he didn't care. He wanted to be close to Vance just not in the way Vance wanted to be close with him. Cyro almost wanted things to be the way they used to be, when Vance was only in it for his own personal reasons the directions that they were headed now seemed like to much.

"This is part of the reason our relationship is going to shit." He replied grabbing Cyro's wrist pulling it off of him. "You just want to fuck and that's it!"

"Yes! Because that's what I signed up for! That's all I signed up for, I don't need or want this happily ever after bullshit right now! I'm not ready for my life to be over so soon!"

"Over?" Vance sneered yanking Cyro closer suddenly as they glared at one another. "Who the fuck says your life is over just because you admit to being in love with me?"

"Oh come off it! You know what I mean, I want to explore my options and your love is locking me down so I can't! You've been in relationships before clearly anyone can see why your ready to settle own and be happily ever after or whatever but I haven't!" Cyro pulled back trying to free his wrist from Vance's grasp but he wouldn't let him go. "You're my first everything! What am I to you? Like your thirty second? How do I even know that I really love you, I don't even know you! And half the time I don't even think I want to!"

"I asked you to be my reason for living not my sex friend, you knew that then and you know that now, you're being selfish."

"So what? So fucking what!" Cyro growled finally pulling free of Vance, they continued to stare at each other, minds racing rapidly, each one trying to understand the awfulness of the situation they were in. Vance sighed, dropping his gaze first as he looked down at the carpet watching Cyro's bare feet approaching him, his voice smaller than usual. "I don't want to hurt you, or us, I just want some time and space you can understand that, can't you?

No, Vance didn't understand it but he was done arguing with Cyro, so he let him do what he wanted. Sliding his arms around Vance's neck, kissing his jaw, pulling him into the bedroom. Vance let Cyro's tongue into his mouth giving an appreciative moan as they tumbled back onto the bed. Deepening the kiss, Vance could feel Cyro widening his legs, pushing his body closer to Vance's.

"You wanna ride me?" Vance whispered against Cyro's mouth, biting his tongue when he realized what he'd said, he hadn't meant to give in so easily. His hand moved down to cup Cyro's bottom eliminating any space between them that may have still existed. Vance shifted onto his elbows as Cyro pulled away from him nodding eagerly. He watched him strip off his hoodie an graphic tee before reaching for Vance's shirt unbuttoning it easily. Vance rolled them over slightly sliding his hand over Cyro's bulge teasing him through the rough fabric of his jeans, Cyro arched into Vance's touch, moving to undo his jeans as Vance licked at his nipples purposely making it harder.

Cyro whined grasping Vance's hair pulling his mouth away from his chest, Vance looked up at him for a moment before shifting his hands and undoing Cyro's jeans pulling them off before returning his mouth to Cyro's chest, kissing a path down to Cyro's member. Cyro watched as Vance kissed him through the fabric of his underwear licking gently at his confined member drawing desperate moans from Cyro before finally sliding the them down his legs to join his pants on the floor. Vance continued kissing his inner thighs, occasionally teasing his tongue over the head of Cyro's cock, putting him closer and closer to the edge of coming.

Suddenly he pulled back rifling through the bed side drawer for the lube. Vance found it after a moment, popping the lid open he maneuvered back against the headboard pouring a large amount of the cool liquid into his hand before stroking it onto his member. Cyro watched openly as Vance prepped himself slightly awestruck by the way he presented himself so confidently. Vance's eyes lifted from his cock after he was satisfied he had prepped more than enough. His free hand motioned for Cyro to straddle him as he continued stroking himself his gaze locked on Cyro.

Cyro hesitated for a moment looking at Vance's member remembering how intimidating it had been the first time they had sex he had never been in control it felt odd to him. He placed his hands on Vance's shoulders straddling him carefully as Vance's hands gripped his hips. He could feel Vance's eyes burning holes into his skin but Cyro refused to make eye contact instead focusing on the situation before him. He took Vance in his hand stroking him, feeling slightly relieve at the ridiculous amount of lube Vance had used.