Coffee Stains - A novel based on The Fooo Conspiracy

22. World of pain

You know that I have a habit of bumping my head on basically everything. Things that no one has ever managed to bump their head on. It started in my early childhood when I fell backwards off a swing. I crashed with my head on a stone and my grandma had to take me to the closest doctor. He gave me stitches and ever since then, I have a scar on the back of my head. I'm basically the girl version of Harry Potter. Not.
The scar on the back of my head seems to attract all kinds of objects. I mean it! It's like a magnet. It's why I keep crashing into things. This one time, at my internship, I put some bottles into the bottom of a shelf and when I got up, I bumped into a metal thing. It was impossible to crash into. But I did it. In the past two days I managed to hit my head three times. On my bed, and twice on a wall. A wall! Who does that? Meee!!!
Right now seems to be the fourth time. I seem to have gotten myself into a impossible situation. I ran right into a wall that can't be crushed. I barked up the wrong tree.
I did see words coming out of Alicia's mouth. I simply didn't want to hear them. Seconds earlier, the door had opened and Lou and Ariana had come in. They saw the moment Ariana said the destroying words and they are now standing behind me. Frozen. Waiting for my reaction.
I say nothing. I just watch the screen. I don't even recognize what's going on there. Then I get up and walk to the fridge. "Is there any yogurt?" I ask Olly who's standing beside me watching me closely. He points to the yogurt standing right in front of me. "Oh there it is! Silly me! It's no fruit yogurt right? Ah no... What else is there to eat... Lasagne! Come here babe!" I take out the lasagne. I do notice that everyone is watching me but I ignore them all. I but the box with the lasagne on the kitchen counter, take out a fork and start eating. "Is she gonna eat the whole thing?" I hear Lou saying to no one specific. "Yes I am going to eat the whole thing. I eat when I'm upset ok?" I also have the habit of reacting to things ... Differently than other people. I guess that suits it.
"Of course you're upset." Olly says.
In that moment the door opens. Oscar, Felix and Omar enter the loft. Alicia isn't with them. thank god! "Oh I'm upset alright! How could you not tell me? You're all traitors! Oscar the most and then the rest of you! You're my best friends! How could you? You all betrayed me! I had to find out over some news lady!! In Swedish!" My anger builds up with every word I'm saying. The boys just stare at me. Except for Oscar. He walks towards me. His hands move conciliatory. "I'm sorry! But let me explain!" He says.
"No you're done talking! It's my turn now! You tell me you love me! You make me feel things that I never thought were even possible to feel! And then this? I'm so disappointed Oscar!" I start walking through the whole room screaming at him. Everyone else is just watching. Omar and Felix seem confused since they're the only ones that know nothing about me and Oscar.
"I understand why you're upset... But you have to let me explain!" Oscar tries again but I don't let him finish.
"What I don't understand! You could've told me like weeks ago! But no! For some stupid reason you all did not tell me! But worse! You even lied to me!"
Now Oscar is the one to look confused.
"We decided about the wedding just today! There was no way I could've told you earlier!" He says.
"Oh right you're getting married! Congratulations on that..." I don't scream that. I say it like I actually mean it.
"That's not what I'm talking about! You told me you had your first concert and you had a few songs! But now some news lady tells me that you're the most famous boyband in all of Sweden!!! And the only one that has told me just a slight bit of the truth is Lou! Really?? I'm hurt!" I rage out again.
Now Oscar looks like a cow. The others as well.
"Ok. Let me get this straight." Omar says and comes closer. "You and Oscar have been having an affair?"
Everyone looks at him now. Like always he is way slower than the rest. "Dude that's dope!" Omar cheers and sits down on the sofa. "Klerii... You're upset about the fact that we didn't tell you how famous we are?" Olly says in disbelief.
"What else should I be worried about? Oh you mean that Oscar told me he'd break up with his girlfriend who is now his fiance? Oh no that happens to me all the time. I fall in love with someone, have a hot scene in the shower and then he breaks my heart. Happened several times already! No big deal." I say with a pejorative hand shake. Now Oscar looks like a surprised Shrek. "Ok. Something is seriously wrong with you!" He let's out and then he says: "but there won't be a wedding! It's all just for the media! We'll call the wedding off in two weeks. We'll find some excuse that lets everybody look good and then we can be together!" He takes my hands smiling a little but I shake him off. "Oscar I can't do this." I look at him hoping he doesn't see the pain that rages inside me in my eyes. I try to cover it up with anger but I'm one of those people who can't be angry at someone for very long. I step back to underline my words. Now I can see pain in his eyes. But it's a different pain. While my pain is caused from betrayal, his cause lays at rejection. "I thought I loved you. Buy I guess I just don't know what love means yet." I have never worked this hard to hold back tears. But as I said before: Klerii doesn't cry in front of boys. So what if she can't help but crying? She walks away. So I walk away. I walk away from who I thought was my true love. I guess I was wrong. He's just the first one to make me feel special. I walk away from my friends. And I walk straight to my room closing the doors behind me. (I like being dramatic).