Coffee Stains - A novel based on The Fooo Conspiracy

43. Nightmare

I shrug out of sleep. It was the train voice that woke me. "Next stop Augsburg Main station. Please exit the train on the right." The voice says. I groan. Then I realise that I'm not in my bed with Oscar anymore. Where there fuck am I? I look around. I sit on one of those table seats for four people. I am inside a train. It's a German train I can see that right away. Nothing is more ugly. It's dark outside and nothing to make out. Only gestures that are passing by. We are obviously moving. I have no idea how I ended up here. This is so weird. Across from me sits Oscar so at least he's with me. I'm not alone then.
I wanna say something. But my mouth feels like gummy. Still I try it. "Oscar?" I say to try out my voice. He's reading a magazine and I start thinking something is weird here. He looks up and at me. But it's not the usual look he gives me. He looks at me like I'm some stranger. Like he's never kissed me before. Like he has never seen me naked. I know something is different. "Oscar where are we?" I finally ask since my voice works.
That unfamiliar look again.
"Excuse me miss how do you know my name?" He asks looking confused.
Before I can answer anything,Oscars attention is taken away by a strange girl that comes along and sits down next to him. A stinging comes to my heart. He looks at her like he used to look at me. "What's with her?" The girl asks and points to me. She is blond and one of those beauty fanatic girls. She looks like it took her ages to look like that. I instantly hate her.
"I don't know honey I think she's crazy." Oscar says and, to my misery kisses her on the mouth.
"I can't  believe we're getting married!" The girl smiles and Oscars face becomes so happy that he doesn't even notice my heartbroken gasp as I hear her words.
I start wondering if this is actually real. The past weeks must have been all a dream and I'm actually still sitting at the train to Stockholm. How could my subconscious do this to me? How could I make up people and places in my dream that seemed so real? Why does this have to happen to me? Did I do anything to deserve this?
Suddenly my view becomes blurry. I blink to get rid of the fog that's blocking my sight. Suddenly I feel like in Harry Potter where Harry falls into the obscura in Dumbledore's office and watches several scenes as a third party. It's like I'm not even here.

When my view becomes clear again, the two people sitting across from me are making out. Like tongue and almost ripping cloths off kinda making out!
So now I am doomed to watch Oscar and his chick eating each others faces in front of me. And it kinda makes me cry. I mean why wouldn't it? I fantasized about a stranger I saw at the train. I fantasized about him naked and building a life with me. And now I find out that it never happened. Of course I'm devastated! I can't stop looking at them and the tears just run out of my eyes. I start off silently and as I realize that they don't notice me and we seem to be alone in the train wagon anyway, I start telling them to stop. When there is still no response I get scared. I start screaming at them in anger and panic. They don't hear me. Instead Oscar whispers to her, I can still clearly hear him, "we're all alone in this train" and smirks dirty.

"Hello? There's still me! And if you start having sex now I'm gonna barf on your faces you ugly sons of bitches!!! Oscar I can't believe you fell for her! She just wants your money you fool!!! You're the biggest son of a bitch I Have ever seen!! DO YOU HEAR ME????" I am now at the point where I got up from my seat to scream in his face from close up.

Then it hits me:
Maybe I died? Nooo I couldn't have... Why would I be dead? I mean I don't remember dying...
All I know is there keep making out and I will try my best to stop them from it.
"OSCAR COME BACK TO ME! I LOVE YOU! I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!!" I scream over and over again in tears. I can't stop crying I can't stop screaming.
If this is the after life, someone really wants to punish me. But for what?

"What did I do to deserve this?" I finally cry sitting powerless on the floor.

***

Suddenly I hear a voice. It's Oscars voice. But the one loosing his dignity next to me isn't talking. It seems to come from far, far away. "Klara!" The voice says. "Klara you need to wake up!"

I open my eyes and shrug up from the bed I was just laying on. I'm all sweaty and my face is wet. A pair of hands, that I remember shaking me, is now pulling me to a body and stroking my back. I am still crying. Then I realize this is Oscar. The real one. The one that loves me. The one I had sex with for three hours at seven different places (Yup that happened).

I know it was all just a dream. A nightmare. You know how it is when you just had a nightmare right? Youre shaking and you're still scared or crying like you did in the dream. It just captures you and you can't get rid of the fear as easily as of a good dream. You're in shock for a few seconds.

"What happened?" I ask after I stopped crying and the shock is over.

"I woke up because you were screaming my name. You were crying and screaming that you loved me. I didn't know what to do so I woke you up. You were just dreaming." Oscar says and pulls me closer to his chest.
"I'm sorry for making you worry. " I mumble.
"Wanna talk about it?"
I hesitate before shaking my head. "I just don't ever want to loose you again. So if you leave me I'll cut your balls off." I say. That makes him smile like I hoped it would. In his eyes I see what I didn't see in nightmare-Oscars eyes: endless Love for me. He really does love me. I know it. Those eyes can't lie. "What time is it?" I finally ask after looking into his eyes for a while. "It's two in the morning. We should go back to sleep." He answers.
"But please hold me. I don't want to fall asleep without you by my side." I say as we lay back down.
"I'm not going anywhere." He states and them I'm back in the land of dreams. This time my dream is about unicorns and rainbows like usual.