Coffee Stains - A novel based on The Fooo Conspiracy

29. [Add clever Title here]

I can't get to the loft fast enough. I just want to leave. If I have to go home, it has to be now. I'm now going to pack all my stuff as quick as possible and then take a cab to the airport. I'll stay there over night and take my flight in the morning. So I practically run through the loft towards my room. I close the doors behind me with a loud bang. I don't want to see anyone until I'm leaving. Not before I'm gone. I can't. I just want to be alone. I can deal with it better when no one bothers me. Being alone keeps me from crying. It keeps me from missing this life too much. I pull my bags out from under my bed and throw them on top of it. Then I collect my stuff from all over the room and throw it inside. In one bag go my polar bears, blankets and pillows, in the second goes my stereo and in the last all of my cloths. I'll have to pay extra for the plane but I've still got all of my espresso house money. Suddenly I remember something and run to the fridge to take out all of the lasagne left overs. There's not much left anyways since I've eaten all the ones Oscar made for my during my grieving period. There are still two boxes left. I take them out and pack them into my hand luggage. When I return to my room, the loft door opens. I rush around. It's not Oscar. It's Lou. She seems kinda angry. Well actually she seems very angry. "What the hell Klerii? How could you just leave? You know Oscar is very angry with you! And so am I! You just abandoned us there! What could you possibly have had to take care of that is more important than your best friends?" While she lets out that tirade, I slowly move backwards. "Klerii what is it this time?"
"I'm sorry Lou... I didn't know how to tell you..." I stutter.
"Tell me what?" Now Lou's face becomes softer.
"My mom wants me home by tomorrow... I have to finish school before I can move here." I explain and before my new best friend can respond anything I add: "and please don't stop me. I have to leave before Oscar comes home. I can't face him. I can't say goodbye to him. It'll crush me." Lou remains in silence. "Say something?!" I beg.
"What do you want me to say! 'Please don't leave'? 'I'll come with you'?" She looks devastated. "Just something..." I say without letting my eyes off her.
"Ok fine! Let's get you to your cab." She says and overcomes the distance between us. She takes me into her arms and I am glad to have her. Then we both go back to my room. Together we carry the three bags outside. The cab is already waiting and we load the bags into the back. As I close the door, I look at Lou.
"Tell him I'm sorry?" Is all I have to say. There are no words that have to be said. So she pulls me into a hug. "Be safe." She whispers into my ear and I tighten the hug before I let go. I get into the backseat of the car and the driver starts the engine. We take off. I wave to Lou through the window and the car drives around the corner. The last thing I see is Lou going back into the house.
I look out the front window. So this is it... Me leaving Stockholm. What was the last thing I said to oscar? When was the last time I kissed him? The last time his skin touched mine? I can't remember... It must have been right before the gig... It feel like ages ago. All of that is over now. I have to concentrate on school. I can't let some guy I used to make out in the shower with get in the way. So as I drive through the slowly darkening city, Oscar becomes just some guy who I almost lost my virginity to. Almost. Arriving at the airport, I give up my bags, pay a ridiculously high amount of money and check in. Through the safety check, to the gate. I stop over at an espresso house and get a vanilla latte. It's not as good as Oscar makes it, but I drink it anyways. Then I head to the gate. My flight boards in about ten hours from now so I lay down on the benches and quickly fall asleep.

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I wake up. Sadly it's not a slow, nice waking up, but one of those ugly shrugging. Like when you wake up after a bad dream.