I'm Lost

Chapter Two

Oh What do you mean what do you know about my life you don't know me at all."But Shailah we do said Zac" what how who what... Shailah was so shocked she fainted all that she remembered was that Zac was saying close your eyes we will make it all better for you. When I woke up I could hear from some were saying what the hell did you do to her she fainted because of you."Wait a minute she needed to know before you go and start yelling at". I'm the one that save her remember that, You can't put that on me. But just before that they could argue more I woke up and was very light headed and I said that I feel really bad. Shailah you should probability lay down still but I can't I said because use were arguing and what do you mean that you saved me from what .Shailah there is something that we have to tell you. When you were young your mother was going to give you up for adoption and then all of a sudden she said that she wasn't. I gasped and said that you are making this all up I know it. Ok then Shailah don't believe us then but to say that we were there when your mother was drunk and left you at side one day and then when you were older she left you again and then we were there to save you. Ok what if I said that I did believe you what am I am doing here know. Shailah we are a family and you are apart of it as well ok.Later that night I was thinking about every thing I was told and then I got out of my bed and went down and went down to the tap it was Mark your up late can't sleep. I said no I can't sleep because I have been taken and then be told something different so yea I can't sleep .sorry I went over to him and it was a a surprise to both of us I lean't into him and then all of a sudden I just felt the need to kiss him and then we kissed his lips felt nice on mine I just wanted him everything I needed to be with him we kissed for hours and all I wanted was to feel wanted he kissed my neck and I tried not to moan but it was hard not to. we let go because we could hear people coming and than Zac comes in with someone new. Hi guys what are you doing up already and we both went red and Zac got the idea ow that fun. mark and Shailah this is Luke he is my cousin and Mark he know's everything that's going on and then I feel the rush of being here I was so mad that I ran and punched Zac so hard I left him in so much pain I stormed off and than I stayed in my room for hours just angry and mad and confused why me why I yelled it so hard that my voice was so dry I got dressed in a pair of shorts that went right up to my butt and a half shirt with a open jumper over it.

I went down to grab some water and something to eat and there was every one at the table even Luke he was the first to look at me and I think he new how I felt. What are use looking at when I looked at them what Zac has never been beaten up by a 14 year old. No Shailah it's not that it's your birthday with all that'happened I forgot that I'm 15 Mark came over to me and went to give me a kiss but I pulled away and he looked puzzled fine than he said but pulled me in any way and stole a kiss I was so frustrated I didn't care at all and I went with it every one was cheering but Luke and Zac.

What was wrong with them I did't know what is wrong with them later afternoon I turned around. the corner and there was Zac and Luke and they had a big smile on there faces. they came over and Luke stood in front of me and then kissed me neck chills went down my spine and then something was wrong they were playing with me why did you do that I said I pushed him and then he grabbed me by the arm and pulled me in and then Zac helped him pick me up and took me to a room I yelled but I don't. think no one could hear me what are you doing. We can't tell you why not I said because Shailah you can't know. They put me on the bed and they said to be quiet I did as I was told I brought Luke here for you what did you think of Luke would you date him or even marry him. I didn't answer at first then I said why did you bring him here for and why do I have answer this question for. Shailah would you rather marry Mark or Luke. I don't know if I do like any of use at all Shailah you have to choose or I will make you choose and it won't be fun. Use are all monsters why me what did I do to deserve this why Shailah it's very hard to explain. Well tell me then Luke was on me and I said to get off me please and then I was crying Zac left me with him what do you want I said. Shailah please I just want to talk but before i know it i'm so tired that I fall on the bed and listen what Luke is saying. his fingers are going through my hair and I feel loved again. Iv'e been lost my hole life and I feel loved his hands go up my shirt and than he moves closer to me I feel his warmth on my skin I roll over and look at him our eyes lock connection I look into his eyes and then he moves more over I feel tingles all through me. I start to blush and then he says Shailah do you love me or Mark I don't know you that much and know you just want me to choose I closed my eyes and let Luke out line my bra I just wanted to be loved and warm for once in side and out. After a while he lifts my shirt off and I'm only my pants and my bra I said why did you do that because you looked very hot both ways I blushed and after a while I thought that I wanted him I wanted him more than I wanted any thing in my world. I laid on him and I helped him take his shirt off than his pants and he helped me with my pants we were going pretty hard and then I said can we slow down he said okay.

Zac knock on the door and he came in why I just got my underwear on and my bra on and I was like dude getting dressed well sorry that you did my cousin. Okay you have a point there but I am a lady so can use two go out there and talk please so that I don't feel like I'm being watched. Well sorry princess don't call me that I said in a teasing voice ha ha get a a life I said to him. I have a right so what's the problem just please get out so they did. but just before they got out Luke came over and picked me up and kissed me Zac laughed before he went but I blushed.