I'm Lost

Chapter 18

Tonight is the best I've gotten a lot of people at my birthday party and it's the best I can't wait for my boyfriend Ben gets here. Ben finally walks in and he looks sad 😭 what is wrong I ask him he says he can't keep it a secret anymore. What a secret anymore me and Sarah have been doing it behind your back. What Sarah is my best friend how could you do that to me. I slapped him in the face I walked away from him. I found Sarah and I told her to get out of my party 🎉 why she looked puzzled. Because you and Ben have slept together my own boyfriend Sarah. 

I kicked Ben and Sarah out I didn't need him or her they could have each other because he will yet bored because all Sarah does is go to boy to boy as I walked around I see someone looking at me across the room. I go over to see if the person is okay I approach the person. He is a boy brown eyes and brown hair he's wearing a white button up shirt and black pants. Hello are you ok and are you invited to my party. Yes I am and an old friend sent me but he is out side come on lets go see him.

I walk out side with this mysterious boy and all I saw was people that brang back old memories I  stopped dead in my tracks and looked and Mark,Luke ,Zac ,Jessica. ww-what are you ddd-doing here I was stuttering so bad. Shailah this is Justin my brother said Jessica and I'm glad that use two met.

And with that word I tried to run back but was caught by Justin and he put his hand over my mouth and picked me up and put me back into the van. I screamed and cried this can't be happening again I was sat on Marks lap and I wanted to kill this man as much as the rest of the other people in this car.  

I stopped crying after 10 minutes and I looked out the window while we were in silence but Jessica and Justin in the back of the car then Mark said into my ears. I've missed you baby girl have you missed me. You are a disgusting man and I hope this car tips over and we all die because I hate you.  

"Why would you say that Shailah"                                                                                                                                  because I hate you will all passion you make me wanna be sick I ran away for a reason. It's not that I like to be near you guys you made me cry and being abused and even worse you sat there and raped me so why wouldn't I hate you for that.

I have had to go to therapy and I still have nightmares and sometimes I can't go to school because you might come and kill me it's hard to really know what it's like to feel trapped and not going any where. "Shailah we tried to make you feel relationship but you couldn't let us love you".

Because you are a sicko and you had a fantasy your a creep you like little girls and you like to feel up girls and I don't know why the police get you and put you away.

"Shailah" we never wanted to hurt you we wanted you to choose and stay we wanted to make your life easier