I hate feeling lost and enable to control my own life did my parents even think when they brought this child into the world that her whole life would be destroyed or did they think that it would be normal for her. I am so sick of this I am done from now on I am going to be depressed.
we finally made it to the house I remember the whole house even if I wanted to forget about it I couldn't. Mark grabbed my hand and held it tight so I couldn't move it, I walked into the house the smell of alcohol and sweat smelt the air I grindged my nose and walked with Mark.
He let my hand go and stood behind me while I stood still tears rolling down my face I didn't make a noise just walked forward into the kitchen. I turned around and face everyone I just stood there and stared, Everyone looked the same but also different Jessica dyed her hair blonde, Mark's hair was longer shaggyer, Luke had blue tips with his brown hair,Zac still looked the same but looked older.
Shailah are you okay you are looking at us funny what........
I just looked them still I had nothing nice to say so I said nothing so I walked away to the back door and just sat there with the door open and took in the smell, I think to myself why do I always think my life will get better it won't so just give up....
I looked back and yelled I FUCKING HATE YOU WHY DO YOU WANT ME HERE MY LIFE WAS BETTER BEFORE THIS ARHH
I hate that you have full control over me you aren't even my fucking real family so why do you think you can control it huh?
Jessica came over to me and tried to calm me down and i screamed and I started to throw anything I could grab I was so angry i didn't care if I hurt myself
Mark yelled and said stop and I kept going and throwing more and more till I got tired and stayed still and everyone new that I hated every single one of them. why me like why me what have I ever done for all of this I was trying to be normal and every time I did something bad happened. I tried to have a normal relationship and even then I was cheated on and taken
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I'm Lost
Romancekidnapped by someone that I don't know and finding out that you have to be forced to love them but than 2 people came into my life and I coulden't choose who I wanted what should shailah do what should she do and how could she do it growing up shail...
