I'm Lost

Chapter Ten

I woke up and went to the kitchen hey Josh I said what are you doing. Mark said hey I looked away still not talking to you shailah mark said it's been three weeks please talk to me. NO IT'S YOUR FAULT NOT MINE. Relax shailah your upset the baby. I laughed what's so funny shailah I had my period a couple of days ago the baby is dead. Mark looked at me and I started to cry Josh can you please leave I'll talk later mark said yep hope she talked to you soon bro.

It's OK it's OK no its not its your fault wow what's wrong .

You stole me you kept raping me and you got me pregnant I don't even like you I like Luke.

Mark took me by the hand I stopped and he picked me up we ended up in his room what are you doing you stay here till I get back. I layed back and fell asleep

When I woke up I found my self naked and mark naked on me and he said shailah do you want me to wear a condom or not.

Mark what are you doing I'm gonna show you that you don't get away from what you did. Please don't hurt me but how will you learn. I'll be good I'll do what you say I promise.

But I don't believe you so I'll ask again condom or nothing. I give up and say condom he puts it on and he looked at me I was scared I just wanted it to be over and when it was finally done I just layed there to saw to scared to move I waited till he was done to cry till I felt it all out of my system I sat up I covered my self and looked at my self through the mirror and I just wanted to be perfect not this child.

But deep down I just wanted to be the person every one wanted but I guess I'm not. A knock at the door and the person came in it was Luke I got up and ran to him I jumped up and he caught me he held me tight and I didn't want him to let me go. What's wrong shailah I was crying when I told him and Luke was about to say something and than did nothing he was just mad.

I got dressed and Luke and me went to the kitchen he tickled my sides as we make lunch he stood behind me as I made fruit salad he put some music on and while he was behind me. He put his hands on my hips and moved my sides following him to the beat. After we were waiting for the meat to be finished I faced Luke and he picked me up onto the bench and he came between my legs. He whispered into my ear I'm so sorry I left you with this monster for days it's OK he pulled me in more and kissed my neck.

I was seating the table when zac walked in. I ran to him and jumped up into his arms wow your exited to see me aren't you yep so what have you been up to as we sat at the table well mark got me pregnant and than I lost the baby after 2 weeks. Zac looked at me and said that's why you were in the hospital yep

Hello I turned around to see Mark and 3 other people hey mark said zac how are u said Luke good good so what do we have here just some food I said that's all just catching up with the boys

Good well can I please steal shailah for a minute sure thing I said as much hurt in my voice. What do u want now Mark isn't making me in pain a fun thing to do for you. Shay come on you need to learn. How can I learn if you do one thing but do another how Mark.

He pushed me against the wall he pulled my hands with his up the wall and up above my head he kissed my neck he was trying to get to me but I had to try but it was so hard not to I just couldn't do it I relaxed a little bit and he relaxed let go of one of my hands but mine were still above my head and he felt my body shake under his then he finally let go he said let's go and have that lunch you made and we will talk over it all .

we went ever to the table and Mark said after we ate who wants to go for a swim and i said yes so did the other boys including the other people that I didn't know that were with mark ok than Mark had some togs put on my bed they were awesome they were bekinies and they had daisies all over them it was like made for me when I put them on my butt was a bit out of it and the bobbies were coming out of it a bit so I didn't know if I should have a shirt on as well but i put one over and when we are getting into the water ill take them off I said.

When i was going down the stairs all the boys were waiting for me and they all looked up and Mark frowned a bit why aren't you wearing the swimmers I am but they are under my shirt that's it ow ok good I want to see you in them. I blushed and looked at Luke and Zac and they were laughing as I was we went around the house and there it was the pool it had a slide as well I was the first to jump in and than Luke and than Zac mark seed out of the pool and was talking to the other people and than they all jumped in i was getting out when everyone was looking at me an dI was going red because I hated the attention Mark was looking and licking his lips and so were the others but Luke and Zac they got out with me and we went to the slide and Mark looked pissed I was enjoying it.

I after that I was really tired so we put on a movie I was trying to get away formMark by hanging out with Luke and Zac and they new it so it was even more funny when we would laugh about it. I fell asleep in Luke's arms and he did as well when i woke no one was there and I found it a strange.

everyone came home at 3:00am well what took u so long guys because it's been 4 hours so what we're u all doing guys because I find really funny. Sorry we didn't tell you but