PAIN is LOVE

A good plan gone wrong

My new attire became my new life. Day-in-day-out, I was forever in short skirts and heels and I would wear my Afro down, puffed-out, bitchy pony-tails but never in a neat tie. Sure I had become the hottest thing at school but still one person thought the very opposite of everyone else, in fact, he never as much as looked at me. His hostility was so bad that he would even turn around if I was headed the same direction as he was. If I thought that by the time he decided to date Dabs I was experiencing the worst of life itself, then I guess I thought too soon! Maybe I should have left things the way they were,maybe Thabile and I would have still been friends. I'd still have her by my side and..

Every morning I would look at myself in the mirror and reassure myself that this is the day TJ would recognized my beauty but the day never came. Instead he grew colder and the hate he had for me was evident for everyone to see. the more i tried to get his attention, there further away I seemed to push him. Maybe Thabile was right, maybe TJ never liked me to begin with and maybe he never will.

What if I was meant to be alone? What if I was meant to be isolated for life? Sure my life was a suck up back in the day but it was not as bad as what it turned to when I decided to be someone else.

If this was going to be my new life then I was going to embrace it to its fullest. At least I was going to benefit a little from it. I was going to watch the DSL bow before me, i was going to make them feel the blade of being inferior. If this is what I had to become in order to get my vengeance, then I was sure I was going to live it to the very bitter end. my transformation was not going to be in vain

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-keletso