It was official, Thabo and I were dating. so much for true love!
Whenever I saw TJ with Dabs, I would make sure that I held onto Thabo as tightly as I could, it was not the proudest thing of my life but I was turning him into my weapon. The only way to win TJ was to make him jealous and believe me he was and he hated my guts even more!
Everyday, and I mean every single day, when I saw him with Dabs my heart only had Schwarzenegger's emotion- I wanted to terminate the both of them! My blood would boil, causing me to lose my chill and even worse I had Thabo to deal with. The guy was an obsessed psycho! I was not allowed to greet any guy in his presence and I was not allowed to be seen with any other guy besides him! The craziest of them all was that he didn't want me wearing anything below my thighs because he liked my legs. Really?
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''what on Earth are you wearing?'' he yelled the minute he laid his eyes on me
''don't you just love it Thabo?'' I smiled as I made a spin for him. My long sky blue dress following behind me with every turn I made
''are you insane? I can't be seen with you dressed like that'' he threw a tantrum, his hands constantly grabbing at my dress
''if you don't want to be seen with me like this then you're insane. I spell out the word stunning right now'' I said while pulling a childish smile at him " I did it all for you Thabo"
Before I could blink Thabo's arms were by my neck and squeezing me against the wall. ''what did I say to you?'' his grip grew stronger. It hurt so bad and there was a burning sensation growing in my trachea but I still drew a strong look just to show him that I was not one to be controlled by a lousy boy.
''is that the best you got?'' I tempted him
''I said you must never ever wear long things. EVER! '' He was furious and that made me happy. I wanted him to be mad! But what followed was such a huge disappointment from a cute guy like him.
He smashed my head with the wall and his hand constantly shot across my face. He was saying something but I couldn't hear past the crashing sound that came from the collision of my skull and the concrete.I was at the verge of a black out when I heard a familiar voice.
''get off her, now''
''or what TJ?'' responded Thabo with his hand still firmly placed on my throat and my feet desperately kicking in the air, speaking on behalf of my air deprived lungs
'' If you are so keen to find out, why don't you try me Thabo'' he said while flexing his muscles
''she's mine and no one will tell me what to do with her'' Thabo removed his hand from my throat and I crushed on the floor like a lifeless body
"Rea is mine TJ, I own her!" That seemed to spark a nerve from TJ. I couldn't make out what was going on but from the way Thabo was breathing, I could tell that he was getting a serious beating. i wanted to see what was going on. I wanted to see TJ be my knight in shining armour and my sight was for me. As the blurriness slowly disappeared, I saw TJ's body crushing skinny Thabo on the ground
I laid there watching with wide eyes. What the......? I thought the guy hated me, guess I thought wrong or better yet, maybe it was way too early to even start guessing.
''you mess with her again, I'll make sure that you remember your legs in ten years' time'' TJ said in Thabo's ear. ''tell her you're sorry!'' he barked but Thabo was resistant.
"i said apologies" repeated TJ, this time knocking Thabo's head on the floor
"chill man. i'm sorry Rea" he let out a growl. TJ got off him allowing Thabo the opportunity to run
''thanks TJ'' I smiled at him
''don't smile, it wasn't a favour. I'm done with yoou Rea'' and he left me there to pick myself up
Sure I was doomed, I was never going to get TJ and I knew that the war I was fighting was not mine to win. Some people were more fortunate than others and in my case I was one of the fortunate ones but I somehow managed to push away that fortune. As TJ turned his back on me and left without a second glance, I knew that I had lost him forever. I thought that everyone was out to get me and if I didn't conform then I would not live. I was so envious of the DSL i even began thinking the real Rea was not good enough. No one was on my case but I had one fear that lead to all the destruction: The fear of recognition, the fear of being the odd one out. Unaware that the harder I tried to show people that I was alive, the more I fed my desire to be 'normal' and the bigger the desire grew.
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PAIN is LOVE
Short StoryUnknown to the world,Rea Motaung has lived all her life afraid of being seen, that is, until the new guy talks to her. Having been out competed by the famous girl at school, she is prepared go to any length to have him look at her again. Written in
