Marine Baby

Chapter Three

Sitting down for dinner was interesting to say the least. Justin stared at me the whole time. I just ignored him as best as I could. I had Ryan on my right and dad on my left so Justin sat in front of me, staring. Ryan and dad kept up most of the conversation while I just tried to ignore the man in front of me. Ryan put his arm around my shoulders and I leaned into his body. I was comfortable with him. He made me feel safe. I sigh and thought about why I left in the first place. It was because of jerkface in front of me. He brooke my heart. No maybe broke is too nice... crushed, stomped, burned, shattered... okay you get the idea. I was literally a shell of a person all because he told me he didn't want or need me anymore. I was lost. How sad is that? To be so crushed over a guy, but I thought he was the one, that he was everything I needed, forever. But I was living a fantasy and that day he reminded me that I can't live in the clouds. I had an awesome childhood, even though it was just me and dad. He always put me first and showed me his love. I was spoiled in that way, I guess. But like every girl I dreamed of finding the one meant for me. Justin was my first boyfriend. First everything really, except for sex. I am still a virgin. I wanted it to be with the person that loved me and who I loved. It feels wrong any other way. Anyway, Justin and I's relationship was perfect, I thought. But then one day he came to my house and said it was over. No emotion, no feelings, nothing. Just "Jules, I can't do this anymore. I don't need you. I mean look at you. Who would want you. You are too clingy." Then turned around and walked out of my house without a backwards glance. The next morning I grabbed some clothes and my money and grabbed a bus to Kentucky. I stayed in a hotel for a couple weeks until I got my papers in order for boot camp. I just hopped off the bus and happened to stand in front of the Marines office. The rest just happened. I needed something to make me strong, to make me depend on me. The Marines did that for me. They made me who I am and I couldn't be happier. 

I look up to see Ryan looking down at me. "Jules, did you hear me?" I just shook my head no because I was that lost in thought. "I asked if you wanted to watch a movie or did you just want to go to bed after dinner?" 

"Definitely movie, but maybe in bed. I am tired too." He leaned over and kissed my forehead. "Anything for you Jules."

The growling started again, but I am unsure of what the heck it is. Maybe dad got a dog while I was away. He was probably lonely. I shook my head and focused on finishing my dinner. When we finished Ryan and cleaned up and told dad to relax. He made it, it seems only fair to clean up. Justin and dad went to the living room. To be honest I don't know why he is still here. I didn't know him and dad stayed in contact. 

Ryan and I walked into the living room and take a seat on the love seat. Ryan and I always sit together. You would think we were together with the way we act. I love him, if I am being honest with myself, I could love him forever. He could be my best friend, husband, and father to my kids. I can see a future with him, but that ass across from me killed me. I don't think I could open my heart again to truly love someone like that. To feel those emotions to myself, to admit them only to me is okay, but to tell someone else that I feel that way - not going to happen. I think Ryan knows but doesn't say anything. 

I snuggle a little deeper into Ryan's side and start to doze off when I hear Justin say he is leaving. I don't open my eyes, but I hear Ryan say it was a pleasure meeting you and dad getting up to walk him to the door. I feel Ryan gently pick me up and take me up the stairs. He tends to carry me a lot so it is no big deal for him to be doing it. As soon as my head hits the pillow and I Ryan kisses me on the forehead I afall into a deep sleep. 

*Justin*

I walk out to my car and finally let out my breath. I think I held it all night waiting for her to disappear. She was there though in all her beauty. She has changed though. She has this hardness to her that wasn't there before. Her dad, Charles, called me and told me she finally came home. I have become close to Charles over the past couple years. When Jules left, it nearly killed us both. I needed to keep in contact with some part of her and with him I coulld. 

I made a mistake when I left her. I thought I was protecting her, how cliche. The guy trying to protect the girl leaves her and end in the end loses her. I thought I could take care of what I needed to and she would be there, waiting for me. I should have known. Jules doesn't wait for no one. I saw the hurt in her eyes when I left her, I saw the broken shell I left. I just thought it was what was best. At 18 I didn't know any better. I was trying to protect her. What a messed up way to protect her. 

Home. That's where I pulled up to but this isn't my home. This is just a house. I left my home when I left Jules. My pack is suppose to come first, well that is what I thought. It hasn't changed now, only now I know that your mate is first and the pack is second. Without your mate, a werewolf is lost. Without a mate you lose hope... happiness. I don't think I have smiled in three years. 

Three years ago, we were having a problem with another pack. They wanted my land and thought I was weak because I was a new alpha. My dad died right after my 17th birthday. He left me our pack.  My mom helps me take care of the pack like a luna should and she will continue until I meet my mate. My beta, James, helps keep me out of my depression but he sees it. They all probably do. 

Anyways. I took care of that pack that wanted my land. I became their alpha too. I killed their alpha in a fight and ended up having two packs. Yeah me. I don't mind, really I just wanted my mate by my side. The Blue Moon pacl's alpha wanted my mate. He knew Jules was mine. They threatened Jules, they followed her. She doesn't know about werewolves or mates. She just knew she loved me and I loved her. I was waiting to tell her. I needed to make sure she loved me before I told her about me, but then I had to push her away. My life is so messed up. 

Jules is back though, and I can't wipe the smile off my face now. God, I have missed her. I had no idea where she went. She just up and left. She told no one not even Charles. And then to find out she joined the Marines. 

I am so lost in thought that I run into James. "Dude get your head out of the clouds" James says. I just look at him and push him out of my way. "Shut it jerk"  I am still smiling like a loon, which is something I just don't do.

"Hey, you ok man? You never smile, and you keep smiling. What's going on?" James asked. He is the only one that knows about Jules. The only one I have ever confided in, I had to he has to help me and there should never be secrets between us. 

"Jules is home. Not for good but for a little while. I just saw her."

"That's awesome man. Did dhe miss you." I growl. Did she miss me? Probably not. She was all cuddly with that Ryan guy. He had his hands all over her. Always kissing her, touching her in some way. 

"Why you growling at me man? I didn't do anything. Just asked a questions."

"Sorry, James. She didn't come alone. She came with a guy. He is alright but he was always touching her, kissing her. My wolf and I didn't like it." I explained.

James shakes his head and walks off, but yells over his shoulder "Good luck with her. She was difficult then I can't imagine now."

I walk to my room, shower, and lay in bed. I just stare at the ceiling. I am excited and miserable all at the same time. I have missed her so much and just want her in my arms. Mating with a human is so difficult. She is fragile, well she was. I don't know about that Jules anymore. She seemed like the old Jules but I saw a roughness to her that wasn't there before. I will get to know the new Jules. No better time than tomorrow. With that last thought, I drift off to sleep and dream of my life with Jules.