Nola Love

Marilyn Monroe

Nicki POV

I'm in the studio writing one of my personal songs and it was almost ready to record. Just as I'm about to go in the booth,my phone rings with a call from Ciara.

"Hi thickims" I say

"Aight swerve tho" She laughs

"Bitch I'm taken anyway what yo tall sexy ass want?" I ask

"Ima let Aubrey know,try it one more time" She chuckles

"Call him,he'll happily agree" I say

"Bitch bye,where yat?" She asks

"The studio by the mall" I say

"Meet me there when you done" She says

"Aight" I say

We disconnect the call and I go in the booth.

"I can be selfish yeah, so impatient,sometimes I feel like Marilyn Monroe,I'm insecure, yeah I make mistakes,sometimes I feel like I'm at the end of the road,I can get low I can get low,don't know which way is up,yea I can get high,I can get high,like I could never come down,call it a curse or just call me blessed,If you can't handle my worst,you ain't getting my best,is this how Marilyn Monroe felt,felt,felt,felt? Must be how Marilyn Monroe felt,felt,felt,felt" I sing

I do the second verse the chorus and bridge and finish it up. I say goodbye to the producer and get in my car,I drive over to the mall to meet Ci. I text her asking where she is and she replies a few seconds later. I go to the Adidas store and see her walking out the dressing room.

"Wazzam Whoadie" She says

"Hey Heaux" I say

"Now what if mama Carol heard you saying that?" She asks

"But mama didn't" I smirk

"You Tryna go to the old spot tonight with August and Drake?" She asks

"It dont madda" I say

"I just gotta make a stop at my house" She says while paying for the stuff she bought

We leave out the store and I suddenly remember what happened the last time we all went out.

"Are you bringing Shawn?" I ask

"I ain't stupid,no" She says

"Are you guys dating?" I smirk

"No" She says trying to hide her smile

"Yes you are!" I say

"No I'm not" She says

"Then why you smiling?" I ask

"I don't know but it ain't like that,forreal we just friends" She says

"You like him?" I ask

"Nah,he cute but not really my type" She says

"Mhmm" I say

She playfully rolls her eyes and we get in my car,I drive to her house and she puts the bags in. She gets back in the car and calls August and Drake,we get to the building and wait for them. They get here and we go in the building and climb up to the roof. We come up here and just sit with our thoughts,write,talk,or just enjoy the city lights.

I'm thinking about my dad and his ways. Growing up he was addicted to drugs and it was bad,he would sell our stuff to get the drugs,he would always yell at my mom and me and my brother were affected by that majorly,he would be drunk or high every night and I really hated him as I got older,he's trying to change so it's not as much hatred but it's sad I had to hate my own father. This city is corruptive and dangerous in so many ways,all you could hear was sirens and faint gunshots. I close my eyes and let the fall air ease my mind. I thank God for my friends cause I don't know where I would be without them.

A/N: Any of you ever feel trapped and lost against the world? Comment and vote!