Jøsh Dun.
People take reality for granted. They never appreciate the small things; the conversations you have with people, the flowers blooming outside, the people you meet, the feelings you feel.
People think they're too small and petty to be appreciated but for me, they deserve to be. As a mental patient diagnosed with severe schizophrenia, those small petty things they call means a lot to me.
My loss of grasp in reality kills me ever single day. It makes me regret I still breath because... What's the point of having a life when you don't know the reality of it?
Back when I still used to go to school, my 'friends' usually ask me who I was talking to and I guess that's how they found out I'm schizophrenic.
What is schizophrenia? Perhaps you don't know. If I am able to describe it in one word, I would use the word, hell. Schizophrenia is like lucid dreaming 24/7. You don't know if every thing you're seeing is real. And it's torturing me since the day I discovered I have it.
By the way, have you ever watched Poltergeist? I haven't but I do know it has a child staring at a TV with white noise. And right now, I'm that child staring at the white noise.
The doctors make me sit inside a room with a small chair and TV while they observe my disorder from another room. From what they told me, I am staring at a white noise but from my point of view, I'm watching a show.
They told me my case is severe and that it's better for me to stay in the—god—mental hospital because medication didn't actually help; it just lessened the hallucination.
So yeah... This is my story. I'm Josh Dun, a schizophrenic.
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We Don't Believe What's On TV || Jøshler AU
Fanfiction"I used to say "I wanna die before I'm old" but because of you, I might think twice" :.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.: Depressed and burnout TV star, Tyler Joseph, decides to get therapy which leads to meeting Josh Dun, a schizophrenic.
