C'mon C'mon (Niall Horan Fanfiction)

Chapter 10

Wey hey my lovelies, it's been a long ass time since I've updated but I'm here now and I have edited all of my chapters and added some short chapters to another chapter so it's longer. So now the chapters are all long reads. Instead of having  almost 30 short chapters I now have 10 long ones. I love you! Please enjoy!!!

*Sarah's POV*

    I sat down on the hood of the toilet, looking down at the destruction I inflicted upon my body, the mess I have made yet again. No matter how hard I try to recover I fail, Fuck it. Fuck recovery, I'm not worth it anymore. As my eyes started to well up with tears for what feels like the billionth time these past few days, there was a quiet knock on the door. "Sarah? Are you okay love bug?" I immediately recognized who it was by their voice. "I'm okay Nialler, my tummy is just bothering me right now. I think I might have ate something spoiled." I faked a small cough to make it seem  more believable, I'm such a great person right? Lying to my boyfriend who is full of nothing but love and kindness. "Okay, I'm here if you need me babe. Just holler out my name and I'll come running." The sound of his footsteps pattering against the floor soon died out from him walking away. I took a slow shaky deep breath and my eyes filled up with more tears. I sniffled as the tears slowly trailed down my face. The thoughts of adding more cuts and scars to my body were eating me alive, I wanted to yank out every hair out of my head. I've become a monster, a killer. I killed the girl I used to be, the happy little girl that saw nothing but happiness and positivity in everything. Now there's nothing left of her. 

    I stood in front of the mirror looking at my face and body in disgust, seeing every flaw and imperfection on my body. I balled my hands into fists and clenched them until my knuckles turned white. Before I could stop myself or think about what I was about to do My fist raised in the air, swinging full force into the mirror. The glass shattering beneath my fists, flying in the air going everywhere; shards hitting my face, body, arms, every part of me. The door busted open showing everyone's face full of shock and fear, my legs crumpled beneath me, my knees hitting the floor. I covered my face, My breathing became short and rapid, my chest heaving up and down. I let out screams and cries, I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around me and hold me.

      I looked down at my sleeves and see them soaked with my red blood. My eyes widened at the sight, realizing that I was indeed still bleeding. 'I didn't cut that deep..did I?' I questioned, I thought to myself, 'Great job Sarah, you're nothing but a fuck up.' I started to shake my head for no apparent reason, I guess to shake the thoughts out my head maybe? "Oh baby girl.." I looked up and saw Niall looking down at me, our eyes connected for a brief second and then his eyes trailed down...he began to stare at my arms. The mess I created, the shithole I've put myself into.  His eyes became glossy as they filled with tears, my chest began to ache, longing to stop the showers that were about to come from his eyes. But I couldn't because I was the cause of them, I'm the reason he's hurt. I can feel my heart breaking, shattering into a million pieces, I put my head down in shame. Thankfully my hair blocks out my face, I didn't mean for this to happen. I really did try...but all they probably see is how I failed..yet again. 

Another battle lost...

*Niall's POV*

    As I look down at my love I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. Seeing Sarah in so much pain..enough pain to take the razor to her perfect skin. I see the stupid fucking piece of metal kicked near the sink, rage, hurt, agony builds up inside me. Before I think twice I grab the damned demon and angrily slice it into my arm, blood rises to the surface of the cut I created. "NIALL WHAT THE HELL MATE?!!" Louis yells at me whilst grabbing a washcloth and applying pressure to the wound. "NO NIALL!!" Sarah screams, crying harder than before. I take in a deep breath and begin to speak...