It's been a while since I lost you,
and I've been trying to be strong.
But I don't know if I can keep it up,
it's just been so long.
Everyday I wear a confident posture,
and draw on a perfect smile.
I laugh and talk like anyone else,
and hide my sadness for a while.
Underneath is where my thoughts hide,
and where my demons lay.
Somedays it takes a lot of effort,
just to keep these beasts at bay.
I will never understand
what made you want to give in.
I will never understand,
everything you hid within.
People ask me all the time
about what made you turn away.
I shrug, though it kills me,
and wish you chose to stay.
I hope you know how much I care,
how I much I miss having you here.
I hope you understand how much
you meant to me, my dear.
