why have you inhabited my brain;
infected my mind with thoughts of you?
why is it that you're slowly killing me,
but all i ever want is to see you?
why do i keep refusing treatment;
everything that could cure your disease?
why don't i just leave you behind me,
instead of letting you control me?
you have driven my mental state,
my entire being, to the brink of death.
you've successfully destroyed me,
and yet i keep letting you in.
i pretend as if my immune system is invincible,
but at this point we both know that isn't true.
if it was so invincible
i wouldn't be sick with thoughts of you.
